♥ stories of my life ♥

31st December 2011.

2011-12-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

Hello all, finally, its the last day of the year. This year seems to pass really fast, with many events happening and a huge transition in my life. So, as the tradition goes, I will do a recap of what happened in this whole year. Just as you may have realized, this year I don't blog as much as I used to. I guess I was too caught up with stuffs in life and that I did not have time to update my blog.

I wanted to do like what I did for the past two years (reading back my old entries for the whole year but apparently I didn't blog much in 2011, plus most of the entries are crappy ones) so, yeah no what-happened-from-Jan-Dec thing this year. Huge transition, my so-called most unwanted time of my entire life has finally arrived in 2011. That, is another phase in life - THE WORKING LIFE. There was never a time when I really thought about what am I going to do in the future, what do I want to be (remember our teachers in school used to ask us what is our ambition in the future?) - and my answers would be - A TEACHER. Hahaha it was one of the most popular answers back then. All I ever thought about was to just go with the flow - from primary school, to secondary school, then to form six, and then pursue my degree in local university and finally start working. Because that was what happened in the family, my sisters did that, and so I thought I will do the same. Which I did. Even up to when I was supposed to choose the course for my university, I didn't know what I want. And again went with the flow. I just took everyone's advice and turned it to my own decision. And now, I have finally graduated and stepped into the most horror time of my life - the working life. I guess its the most horror time of my life is because I just didn't want to grow up. I just wanted to be a kid, with no worries at all.

The whole of 2011 was like a two different world for me. First half of the year I was still a student enjoying my life with my friends and live a carefree life. The second half of the year was a big change for me when I finished my studies and came back to Kuching for good. I am now working, experiencing the real working world for approximately four months now, which I am not so happy about but I chose to work here anyways just because I love the people here - they are very nice. My life has changed 360. I am no longer able to sleep in the morning and wake up in the evening anymore. I have more worries in life, more stressed up than ever. And the worst thing is I work until late every single day and my work is still not done. Guess that is where I am supposed to grow up and be more matured, try to manage my time (yes that's what people ALWAYS tell me) and just enjoy life as it is.

Well, at least I went for a vacation before I started my next phase in life. The vacation was good, I truly enjoyed it. Read more of my vacation here.

SAWADEEKAAAAA :)

I have gained so much experience in life, during my university days and the working life. I can definitely tell you that we should always enjoy our student life - not just being a nerd and study and get Dean's List but also to enjoy the student life because it is a once in a lifetime experience. Once we go past that, we don't get to experience it anymore. And for myself, I am still in the process of learning about life and everything else as I have just stepped into the real world. I would want this year to be a better year - who wouldn't want that?

And this, is me finally graduated. With a very proud-of-myself look. Well, I did survived 3 years of university.

All in all, 2011 is a year that is full of love, tears, sadness, separation, excitement, fear and most of all joy. I am also truly blessed to have met amazing people who came into my life. I thank God for the amazing ones. You know who you are. and YES, you are reading this now :)

So, 2011 is done. So what's next in list for 2012? Any new year resolution? I don't think I ever completed any of my new year resolutions so there's no point setting a new one - but I don't even remember my old ones! Crappylogy!

Well there are a few things that I would want to achieve in 2012.
1) Look deep inside me and search for what I really want, what God really wants me to do.
2) Always catch up with people that matters to me even when I am busy and be with people that I love.
3) Go travel!
4) More of travelling!
5) And travelling! (Before that I have to work save $ work save $ and work save $!)

Yup, that's about it. Nevertheless, 2011 has been a great year for me. Looking forward to 2012, the year of the GREAT DRAGON - fyi. its MY YEAR :)

How can you believe in God?

2011-12-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

Something that caught my eye when I was browsing through my Facebook.
Taken from HERE

How can you believe in God?

If you are not at all religious and you are reading my blog, you might wonder “how on earth can she believe so strongly in a God she hasn’t seen? Aren’t we living in 2011?” Nowadays it’s not so common in the west anymore to grow up in a religious family, God is a little bit outdated and unfortunately people blindly choose the way of the society, without giving God a second thought. I’m not despising anyone, because we are all a product of our society, but too many people consider atheism to be the highest norm, or the only “normal” belief.

But to give an answer to the question “How can you believe in God?” I have to start to tell you that believing is not something based upon a research or proof. If you can prove it, you don’t need faith because you already have the evidence. Belief, or faith, is a supernatural experience and a miracle that takes place in your heart after coming in contact with God Himself. It’s also a choice that we need to make even though we don’t have all evidences. I can never prove that God is real, I have experienced talking to Him and I have had answers to my prayers, but how can I tell someone else to believe just based on that? It’s impossible.

I have spent hours and hours reading the bible, which is Gods Word, and I believe the Word has a supernatural ability to convince us in our spirit that God is real. But once again, that’s something which is real for me and I can never prove it to you. Science can also not prove God’s existence, because God is Spirit and science deal only with the physical things. You can believe in science and you can still believe in God, but if you believe that science is the only true authority, then you cannot believe in God, because science can never prove the spiritual realm.

In India for example, where I live, almost everyone believes in something greater than what they see. Either you are a Hindu, a Muslim, a Christian or something else. Everyone accepts that there is a supernatural world, except maybe a few atheists. I know many other countries like that where the spiritual world is totally accepted in the society, but not in many western countries. In Sweden where I am born and raised, they teach atheism in schools, and they have completely removed all prayer, biblereading and Christianity from a country which is projected as a Christian country. If you live in Sweden and believe in God, you are considered as either naive or as someone who had a rough childhood and has a need of comfort in religion. Believing in God is almost as naive as believing in Santa Claus.

But I want to tell you that I have read science, I have had a good childhood, I have not taken my decision based on my parents belief, I grew up in an atheist “science-believing” society, I have both religious and non religious friends, I am not mentally retarded, but I still believe in God. Why?

Why I believe
It’s basically like this; Yes I grew up in a Christian family, but that didn’t make me a Christian, just as you can’t become a car by just sitting in the garage. It was not until I chose to give Him a chance, to step out of my mentally “thinking-right” boundaries, that everything changed. When I gave Him a chance He came to me. He became real to me and I cannot explain how. I have never seen Him physically, but i have experienced His reality.

Sometimes when I have had a question to God I use to ask it, and in a short period of time I got the answer somehow, through something I read, through someone who spoke to me, or just a thought that came up within me or something that came up on TV. The answer was just sent by God. When I used to pray I could feel His presence coming into the room, and He would sit there and listen to my prayers. Once again, that is nothing I can prove to you, I just know it very strongly. Sometimes I have prayed and asked for things, at certain times very difficult things, and God has somehow made sure I got it. I cannot doubt it was from Him. Other times I have been in danger and experienced His protection. One day I was in a very tough situation and my mother (who lived in another city) woke up in the middle of the night and felt a strong need and an urge to pray for my protection, without knowing anything about the situation. No one can come and tell me that wasn’t God. I have also seen people in wheelchairs stand up and walk after a prayer in Jesus’ name, I have seen deaf people starting to hear after prayer, my mom had a leg that grew out 10 cm after prayer when she was a young teenager, people who have prayed for me have received exact visions and specific words from God which fits into me and my family’s situation, and they don’t even know me or my family.

Well I can tell of endless experiences which makes me even more sure of Gods existence, but even then I must say that it wasn’t these kind of things that made me believe in God. I believed long before I experienced these things. Even if I would never had experienced anything supernatural during my lifetime I would still believe, because faith is a choice, and religion is a relationship. It’s a relationship with God Himself that we must entertain on a regular basis, just like any relationship. If someone would ask me, I would say “Of course God exist, I just spoke to Him today“. My love/faith to God is not based upon supernatural experiences, it’s based in just that; love, and fellowship with Him. To be able to believe in what you cannot see is a great miracle. It’s a conviction that takes place in my heart. I just know that I know that I know that God is real.

But it’s also a personal choice. You can never become a believer just because someone says that you are in the need of a savior to wash away your sins, even though it’s true, we are all sinners, and we can’t have a relationship with God unless our sins are being washed away. But it doesn’t start with someone else telling you. It starts within your own heart. The bible says that no one can come to the Father unless the Spirit of God draws Him near, close to Himself. God always makes the first initiative. But just the fact that you have read this article is a sign that He has already taken that initiative towards you. The response is left to your side.

It’s this easy; either you give Him a chance, or you skip the idea. There is no one to force you and there is no one to hinder you, the choice is yours and you do whatever you like. But if you want to give it a try I just want to tell you that God is the most wonderful person I know, and that no one has ever lost anything trying to know Him. The only thing you have to do is ask Jesus to forgive your sins, because He has the ability of washing it all away, as if it have never happened. And secondly you have to welcome Him into your life as the highest authority; that’s means, whatever He says in His Word (the bible) is the best for you and me, because it is written out oflove. And prayer is not a formal thing, simply talk and express yourself as you are talking to a person. Why all this change of voice and special “prayer positions” and all those things? Be relaxed when you pray, be yourself and know there is a wonderful loving father listening to your prayer, and there are millions of angels in heaven dancing and rejoicing over a person who prays for the first time.

God bless you!

THE WORKING LIFE.

2011-10-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

This is obviously my life right now.

Feeling all the stress of everything. And everything derives from work.

Just a little update on my work. Started this job about a month ago, and still struggling with it, tons of job given. Taken for granted yes, for my workload has turned from 1 to 5-6 things at a time and only being told after I started working. Currently still trying to juggle with that, plus there's activities going on and I'm one of the person in charge (due to lack of manpower) so since last week, I've been staying back in office to do my work up til 8pm and latest 9pm, when I'm suppose to be off duty at 5pm. Everyday I would be sitting there facing the desktop and watching one by one of my colleagues leave the office. Now that's my current life.

Everyone would ask me to manage my time well and such, well I did, and I'm trying. Now how do I manage my time when I'm stuck doing that activity for one whole day, and only get to sit down and do my report at the end of the day which is 5pm until i-dont-know-what-time?

The symptoms of stress that I have found above, most of it is happening to me (except the loss of sex drive, drinking more, smoking more stuff - which won't happen). So tell me, how else should I manage my stress? I want to go out, shopping and movies, karaokes maybe. But I just don't have the time, and I'm just too tired for that. Even if I have, I'll just go by myself. That's one good way of destress-ing myself.

Its 10pm now and time to head to bed.

Wishes never come true.

2011-10-06T21:42:00.000+08:00

How I wish I don't have to work, how I wish I can live a life with only eating, shopping, travelling all my life. But all that is impossible. I still need to face the truth that I'm currently entering a new phase of life, which I do not fancy it at all. I'm starting to feel the stress that I will be facing for as long as I'm working, not only in this company. Most probably its because I have just started my work, no more part time jobs, no more studying, and its all about work, work and work alone. Life is about making choices, either you make the right or the wrong decision. I'm not sure if I did make a right decision to work here but I believe that I am being put to test right now. I feel that I am actually being taken advantage of, maybe I'm new, maybe I just graduated, everyone assume I can handle everything. Working requires us to have a proper time management in order to complete the given tasks, and no its not that I couldn't manage my time properly, it is just that there are too many things to be done in a short period of time. And it is indeed impossible.

But I truly believe that Jesus is able to bring me through this, for nothing is impossible without Him. All I need now, is strong faith. I really want to truly rely on Him because without Him, I know that I will fail.

Sharing this song to you, do listen. Its a really nice song and its actually on a repeat mode now.

Nothing is Impossible - Planet Shakers.

Verse:
I'm not gonna live by what I see,
I'm not gonna live by what I feel

Pre-chorus:
Deep down I,
Know that You're here with me
I know that, You can do anything

Chorus:
Through You,
I can do anything,
I can do all things,
Cause it's You who give me strength,
Nothing is impossible

Through You,
Blind eyes are opened,
Strongholds are broken,
I am living by faith,
Nothing is impossible!

Bridge:
I believe, I believe,
I believe, I believe in You

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me - Phillippians 4:13

Left To Die.

2011-09-04T02:26:00.000+08:00

Just a testimony to share with all of you as my friend has shared it to me.

As I was reading this, I felt goosebumps all over, this proves how real it is. Someone being left to die by the doctors, had no chance to live at all. But Jesus, saved him. The King of All, the Healer, saved him from dying.

Do take a few minutes to read this.

July 2011 Newsletter

Tuesday, July 26, 2011
By: Dr. Nasir Siddiki

Left to Die

By age 34, Nasir Siddiki, a successful businessman, had made his first million, but money meant nothing to him on his deathbed. Diagnosed with the worst case of shingles ever admitted to Toronto General Hospital, his immune system shut down and doctors left him to die.

The next morning I woke in a sterile room on the eighth floor of the hospital, my skin burning as though someone had doused me in gasoline and lit a match. I felt on fire from the inside out.

My doctor arrived and looked at me in wonder. “The blisters are multiplying so fast I can literally watch them grow,” he said. ‘”Your body isn’t fighting back.”

The next morning, in addition to shingles, I had chicken pox from head to toe. I was put in strict isolation. That evening my temperature soared to 107.6 degrees — hot enough to leave my brain permanently scrambled.

For days I continued to deteriorate. My nerve endings became so inflamed that a hair drifting across my skin sent shock waves of fire rippling through my body. By week’s end, I was listed in critical condition.

My Last Hope

In life, I’d been bold, self confident, a risk taker. But facing death, I was terrified. I had no idea what might await me on the other side. I’d been raised as a Moslem in London, England, and I understood Allah was not a god who heals.

My only hope was in medicine.

I eventually slipped so close to death that the doctors didn’t know I could hear them when they examined me. “His immune system has simply shut down,” one of them said.

“He’s dying,” the other confirmed. “His immune system must be compromised by AIDS.”

I don’t have AIDS! I wanted to shout, but I couldn’t form the words. Then it hit me. He said I’m dying!

The doctors spoke quietly to my co-worker, Anita. “In a few hours he’ll be dead,” they said. “If by some miracle he lives, he’ll probably be blind in his right eye, deaf in his right ear, paralyzed on his right side and he may be severely brain damaged from the high fever.”

Then they left.

They left me here to die! I felt like a drowning man going down for the third time. Gathering my strength I whispered a prayer. “God, if you’re real, don’t let me die!”

In His Presence

During the darkest hour of the night, I woke and saw a man at the foot of my bed. Rays of light emanated from him, allowing me to see his outline. I couldn’t see his face, it was too bright. No one had to tell me, I knew it was Jesus.

The Koran mentions Jesus; Moslems believe He existed, not as the son of God, but as a good man and a prophet. I knew this wasn’t Mohammed. I knew it wasn’t Allah. Jesus was in my room. There was no fear, only peace.

“Why would You come to a Moslem when everyone else has left me to die?” I wondered.

Without words, he spoke to me. “I Am the God of the Christians. I Am the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.”

That’s all He said. He didn’t mention my illness. He didn’t mention my impending death. As suddenly as He appeared, He was gone.

The next morning, the same two doctors arrived to examine me. “The blisters have stopped growing!”

“We don’t know what happened, but the shingles virus has gone into remission!”

The following day, still in pain and covered with blisters, I was discharged from the hospital with a suitcase full of drugs. “Don’t leave home,” the doctor cautioned. “It will be months before the blisters go away, and when they do you’ll be left with white patches of skin and scars. The pain could last for years.”

Stepping outside into the morning sun, I looked like a cross between a leper and the Elephant Man. When people saw me, they crossed to the other side of the street. However, my mind was not on my looks; my thoughts were on Jesus. There was no doubt in my mind that Jesus’ presence in my room had stopped the shingles virus. Whatever else Jesus may be, I realized that in His presence miracles happened.

That fact left me with one consuming question: Is Jesus the Son of God as the Christians claim, or is He just a prophet as I was taught?

At home that evening, in spite of the drugs, the pain and itching was so severe I almost had to tie my hands. Even so, I fell into a restless sleep wondering about Jesus.

Learning to Live

The next morning, I woke early and turned on the television. Flipping through the channels, I froze when I saw the following words across the screen: Is Jesus the Son of God?

I listened intently as two men spent the entire program discussing this topic — answering all of my questions. Before the show went off the air, one of the men led the television audience in a prayer. My body was aflame with pain but I knelt on my living room floor anyway. Tears streaming down my face, I repeated the prayer and invited Jesus into my heart.

Dr. Nasir Siddiki with his wife, Anita

Immediately a voracious spiritual hunger sprang up within me. I had to know more about Jesus. In spite of my doctor’s orders to stay inside, the next day I went out and bought a Bible. First I read the books of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. Still ravenous, I started in Genesis and read through the Bible during my sleepless nights.

Meanwhile, Anita brought me books and teaching tapes explaining the Gospel. I devoured them while continuing to study the Word of God. As my understanding of faith began to grow, I dug out a picture of how I looked before shingles. I prayed and asked God to make me look that way again. Jesus, My Healer

One week after my discharge from the hospital, I woke and found my pillow covered in blisters. I must have clawed them in my sleep, I thought. I crawled out of bed and stepped into the shower. What had started on my pillow was finished in the shower: Every blister fell off my body!

Instead of being covered with patches of white and scar tissue, my skin was simply red and raw. It slowly healed, returning to its pre-shingles condition. When it did, I not only looked human, I looked like I did before I got sick, except for the scars that I still carry on my chest.

None of the doctor’s dire predictions came true. My eyesight was 20/20. My hearing was normal. My speech was unimpaired. I suffered no brain damage.

My healing was miraculous, swift and complete. I never suffered from lingering pain or any other complication. Not only did I have the worst case of shingles ever admitted to Toronto General Hospital, I also had the most miraculous recovery.

Jesus, the God of the Christians, showed up in the hospital room of a dying Moslem and healed me. But that wasn’t the greatest miracle He performed. The transformation that occurred in my heart was even more dramatic than the one that occurred in my body.

An international teacher and evangelist, Dr. Nasir Siddiki is the founder of Wisdom Ministries (WisdomMinistries.org).He lives in Tulsa, OK with his wife Anita and their two sons.

With God, all things are possible - Matthew 19:26

I believe most of us only seek God when we are having problems, in our desperate situations, when no one is able to help us, people will tend to switch to the last resort. God, please help me. I need your help. - Only in your desperation you will cry out to God.

He will listen. When you think that no one can understand you, no one is able to help you, He can. He is always there to listen to our problems, He is always there for us. He is the One who can help us, who can solve all of our problems.

Take some time to talk to Him, tell Him everything, what's in your mind and heart. He knows every single thing that we are thinking, but He just wants us to talk to Him, share with Him. I believe He loves each and everyone of us, no matter you're a Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, Taoist, Hindu or anything at all. Any wrongdoings that you have made, tell Him. He will forgive and He will welcome each of you with open arms. Just seek Him with all your heart and you will find Him.

God bless :)

Phuket Getaway!

2011-08-31T02:54:00.002+08:00

HOLA! how are you all doing? hope you're still checking out my blog to keep yourself updated with my life. haha. IM BACK. from vacation, and MIA-ing. I was pretty emo in my previous post, due to job hunting and other stuffs as well. But all is well, I hope.

Anyway, I went for V.A.C.A.T.I.O.N to Phuket, Thailand right after I finished my internship on the 5th August. On the 6th, I flew to KL and then to Phuket on the 8th. Such a rush as I had to finish off my internship report (with 50 pages remaining) and submit everything including ring binding and post it to my lecturer in KK. The night before, Angel was being soooo nice, she came over and overnight hahaha well to help me with my report else I'll be so doomed. I remembered having only 15 minutes of nap from 7pm to the next day 3pm as my flight was 3:05pm! Thank God I was able to nap in the plane, not sleep. At least I gained back some of my energy.

That night we went for dinner and went back home (if I'm not mistaken) and had to get ready because our flight was like super early in the morning at 725am. Yada yada yada left the house at 5am, reached the airport at almost 6, had breakfast at McDonalds, got into plane at 7++am and totally zonked out in the plane. Finally reached our destination at 9 plus, took a taxi to our hotel, cost us 600 baht for the taxi.

Phuket is like a small place, very kampung feel :D plus the road to our hotel, which is to Patong Beach (place we stayed) is super scary, the roads has got no lines - as in to separate the 2 way roads and people just drive like normal? On our way to hotel, we had to go up the hill and down the hill, its kinda scary as the big lorries with lots of stuff and buses uses the same way and it feels like the buses are gonna fall or something. haha don't know how to explain.

AND FINALLY. reached our hotel. First thing, to CAMHO. ;)

DAY ONE.

oh YES, we are sisters ♥

Then, someone fell asleep on the bed and then I followed as well. So she slept from 10am to i-forgot-what-time and I slept from 11am until 1pm? Cant really remember. Then got up, wash up and off we went to walk around Patong Beach and this is what we saw :)

awesome beach! When we walk out from our hotel, about 50 steps or so, the beach is right there in front of us!

*photo from Google*

And continued walking along the beach (pretty much like when I was back in Kota Kinabalu, facing the sea and all) then our stomachs were growling like madddd as we only had breakfast at 6am and zero food until 2pm. And plus we had no idea what to eat or where to eat, only restaurants and didn't bother to look into the restaurants (more of shopping mode) and so we starved ourselves hahaha. Walked for like 2 hours? I'm guessing we kinda walked half of the place. Then we found this! My sister told me that I must try banana pancake and so we bought.

yummy banana chocolate pancake 50 baht.

Walked further down and to left right and found this.

Pork stuff. Everything pork. 10 baht each if I'm not mistaken. we only ate the bottom ones (cant be seen) it looks like luncheon meat and taiwan sausage. EWW. I didnt like it. Bought it because I think it looks interesting but I didnt try the balls one though.

After walking for one whole afternoon, and some shopping, we head back to the hotel as the other two ladies told us that they will be reaching at 6pm Thai time (or earlier - cant recall) btw Thai time is one hour earlier than ours. Waited at the lobby for them at 6pm until 7pm and still didn't see any of them at all. Seriously I waited until I got pissed off and went up to the room in the end. Then we were both in the room and someone knocked on our door, they finally reached, like 730pm or so. Washed up, and went for dinner. I wanted to go to the area that we went that afternoon to look for food, seafood to be exact, but we went to check out the restaurant near our hotel and ended up there because we were too tired to walk there and look for food.

Food for the night.

Pad Thai. The only must-eat Thai food that we know. Thanks to Nichkhun for loving it. Hahahaha.

Rad-Na Noodles.

Stir fried flat noodles.

Tom Yam Kung!

Baked rice with seafood in pineapple shell.

And our dinner cost us 1397 baht altogether. Oh wow I feel so rich for having dinner that cost us more than 1000 (except that its in baht). Haha. I still have that receipt in my purse, decided to keep it as a memory hahahaha.

My mango shake :)

After having our dinner, we walked along the beach and got into tuk tuk to go to the Jungceylon Mall, 150 baht for the tuk tuk after bargaining. We entered the mall to go to the washroom and then got out hahaha to walk along the streets selling all kinds of stuff. Souvenirs, bags, clothes, and ... stuffs. Earlier on that day, we were surveying the Fantasea show/elephant ride/any tours to go for and met this guy Mr. Porn. haha. yes that's his name. And then decided to go for Fantasea that cost us 1700 baht each, about RM170 each. HOMAIGOSH. I didn't think it was that pricey when I was there, but crapppp now I think its super expensive! Anyway we bought the tickets and the show is for the following night. And so we spent 1700 baht in that split second and went back to our hotel without anymore shopping. T___T And also that night, we went to 7 Eleven and bought this back. 10 baht each. SUPER CHEAP okay. Can still afford to buy 10 baht coke though.

Coke and 7UP!

DAY TWO.

Dropped by the beach to camho again. Haha.

We didn't really camho that much/took pictures. We were busy walking and walking and walking. The only thing I remembered about us in Phuket was WALKING. haha.

Day two we started the day with massage, went for head and shoulder massage as I was having my period so they said I can't go for full body massage. What a waste - but thank God in the end! The lady was half Thai-massaging me then I told her no no I'm only doing head and shoulder massage and after a while, she oh oh oh then she asked me to turn my back facing her and then! she unhooked my bra! I was like wtf yo, how come my friends are doing full body massage but they don't get to take off their clothes but I had to?! then she took off my singlet and happily massaging my back, I felt so exposed what the. I told her to cover the curtain (or whatever that was hanging) and she okay okay, but didnt. Told her again, then she oh okay okay no problem, BUT SHE TOOK ONE SMALL TOWEL AND COVERED MY BACK ONLY. I asked her to cover the curtain so that I wouldn't feel so exposed to my friends but she didn't get what I said. FINE. ended up feeling naked - I was anyway.

Done with the massage for 200 baht then we walked to the shopping streets (the place Sandy and I went on the first day) and shopped - despite spending that 1700 baht in a split second the night before :( and shopped. shopped. shopped. Then went back to the hotel and got ourselves ready for that 1700 baht show hahaha have to emphasize on that amount of money.

US AGAIN. heheheh. similar style?

with Zhong! and Sylvia somewhere still doing her make-up.

Reached the fantasea show, its located at Kamala Beach, another side of Phuket I guess.

Buffet dinner @ Kinaree Buffet Restaurant.

The entrance of Kinaree Buffet Restaurant. Super awesome place.

Some decos outside the Fantasea show.

And more.

SIMILAN! hahaha epic name.

We entered the show at 9pm and it ended at 1030pm. We weren't allowed to bring in our phones and cameras so we had to deposit it at the counter :((( I have never been away from my phone and they had to confiscate our phone GRRRR and there were like THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE THERE. imagine selling those phones and DSLRs wowowow will be a very rich person but will be cursed hahaha.

My POV on the Fantasea show? The show wasn't that awesome, to be honest. Its actually elephant show (maybe 10 minutes or so of the elephants) and the rest are .... I couldn't understand what were they doing actually. Sorry, not interested in it I guess. The gymnasts (or whatever you call them) were awesome though. That was the one that got me wow-ed. But the rest was just, so-so. Anyway it was worth the experience, now I can tell everyone that I've been to the famous Fantasea show. haha.

That night we went for foot massage, I thought it was only FOOT MASSAGE but I didn't expect her to massage up to my thigh HOMAIGOSH super super itchy and ewwww so geli! Couldn't stand it almost slapped her hahaha and she massaged my shoulder it hurts soooooo badly that I cried. dang. Then we head back to the hotel and sleeeep all the way til the next morning.

DAY THREE.

Breakfast on the rooftop :)

Getting ready for beach.

Delicious pork burger in 7 Eleven!

Bought 2PM keropok awesomeness! Hahaha I'm so supportive of my 2PM boys ;p

Lunch time. By the roadside just opposite the beach.

Pad thai. Hahaha. Told you its the only must-eat food in Thailand that we know. 70 baht.

Seafood pad thai. AGAIN. hahahha. 80 baht.

BEACH TIME!

Group picture. The only one wearing bikini - the only one who dares to wear it. haha and the three of us looks like her bodyguard -.- so not. haha.

SAND PLAYING TIME.

PERFECT.

I wanted to write CHONG PENDEK - means short, but ended up writing Phuket instead.

Looking happy with half of her short legs being buried in the sand.

Patong Beach ♥

Dinner time!

All the shakes - I can't recall the names.

Prawn with tom yam.

Tom Yam soup.

Fried squid.

Pad Thai again HAHAHAHA.

Then we went to walk along Bangla Road, the most happening clubbing scene in Patong. Clubs, music, pubs, chicks, tourists, guys, poles, beers, alcohols, strippers, ladyboys you name it they have it.

The famous Bangla Road. *photo from Google*

Beers, clubs, girls stripping. Sylvia wanted to watch the girls stripping in the Agogo Bar or something, but we didn't because the rest of us don't fancy such thing hahaha so ended up we walked pass them and saw lots of tourists were taking pictures with the ladyboys and even grabbed their 'boobs' hahahaha quite entertaining I must say. And it was the most happening scene I have ever seen. (Guess I have to see more of the world).

Saw this sign board everywhere!

Headed back home after dinner & sight seeing at Bangla Road. End of Day Three.

DAY FOUR.

Went to 7E, just about 20steps away from our hotel, got ourselves some pork burger for breakfast :)

Sisit eating some long spicy sausages. Yummy, cost us 20 baht only.

Then, we had shopping spree in 7E because their flight was at 5pm and ours at 9pm, not much stuff to spend on thus we spent it in 7E. haha. Check out this girl with her food.

Tsktsktsk.

And mine hahaha ;) Total 170 baht.

Took a picture in front of our hotel before leaving :D

7Q hotel and I~

Finally, we sent them off - at the lobby while the mini bus picked them up to the airport. Then, it was time to go for some walking/sightseeing again before leaving.

hehehe took this using my phone, set it on timer and put in on something I-dunno-what-is-it. Sunny sunny afternoon ♥

Final brunch in Phuket by the roadside, same stall again.

and Goodbye, Phuket.

See you again.

Now, my shopping items!

Bought in KL.

Formal wear - pink and blue 2 for RM70.

Blue dress - top left for RM10.

And everything else there for RM25 each.

Great steal no? hehe I love shopping.

3 quarter pants RM59 - discounted few ringgit RM54++.

Long pants RM65. Discounted few ringgit RM60++.

Black flats RM39.

My shopping items from Phuket ♥

Tshirts - Coke & Sunnies 150 baht each.

Singlet - Red Bull 130 baht.

Dress - 199 baht.

Shawls - 100 baht each. SUPER CHEAP, bought it in Jungceylon Mall.

Souvenirs. Didn't have that much cash to buy souvenirs for everyone T_T

AND MY BEST SHOPPING ITEMS FROM PHUKET MY MOST LOVED ONES.

AWESOME BAGS WITH GREAT QUALITY AND CHEAP PRICE!

guess how much did I bought them for?! GUESS GUESS! GUESS NAOOO! okay la don't wanna wait for you to guess, its not like you can tell me anyway.

Top - Brown bag 299 baht.

Left - Yellow bag 199 baht.

Right - Pink bag 199 baht.

SUPER DUPER CHEAP RIGHT. HOMAIGOSH I WANNA GO THERE AND STEAL SOME MORE NEXT TIME. that shop is all over in Thailand hehhehe. unfortunately, only these bags are nice, the rest, ugh not nice. and that brown bag on top? I bought it last minute, when I decided to get back to the shop after sending them off and only had 280 baht in my purse. Borrowed 20 baht from Sandy hahahaha and paid her in MYR. my happiest purchase ever.

okay enough of that. now let me show you some unglam pictures. say thank you for publicizing it here!

wtf look at Sylvia.

not so unglam afterall.

I should try to be more like a girl. T_T

happily sitting and writing down my expenses @ hotel lobby.

I realize I always give that look!

OKAY FINISH. not so unglam afterall.

end of my phuket getaway post!

SAWADEEKAP~

I actually used up some of this, ended up I found out that I only left 8 baht in my purse.

Goodbye Phuket. Goodbye cash.

And finally,

Our reunion session with the girls! Choes, Teohs and Jade! miss you guys alot. hehe.

All in all, Phuket was fun, great but not so awesome I-have-no-idea-why. But my vacation was of course awesome! How can it not be awesome, I've spent so much on my trip. Supposedly change RM400 for my Phuket and the rest for shopping in KL but I ended up changing RM750, and shopping in KL - spent RM300 on the first day. Total, I guess I spent approximately more than RM1000 for that trip.

Oh how awesome that we get to spend so much money right! Shopping is awesome, but earning money is not. And I think I'm addicted to shopping AND travelling. Now that I've spent so much, time for me to earn it all back.

My new year resolution, to go travel! Ciao.

2011-08-22T02:37:00.000+08:00

This. Is all I'm feeling right now.

I do not know where to go, what to do. All I can see, is that word up there. Currently still at crossroads. I am a very very indecisive person, I usually just go-with-the-flow and now I have to make decisions on my own.

Lord, please help me, for You are the One that makes all things possible. And that only happens when I seek You with all my heart.

2011-07-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

Its almost the end of my internship life, and I'm going to be a working adult very soon, entering the so-called corporate world. Scares me just by thinking about it. Anyway, its the end of July now and hmm realized I only posted one entry in the whole month of July heeee. I feel bad for abandoning my blog so here I am! Just in case you all forget how do I look like (haven't done this in a while-posting my pictures I mean), so this is ME!

Okay la this was a month ago. I chopped off my awesome long ~~grass lookalike~~ hair! TO THIS.

OKAY YA I KNOW its still long anyway. BUT at least its much shorter than before and no more grass lookalike hair right?! By the way, my hair is still straight, I just curled it myself for dinner purposes. Do I look okay with curly/wavy hair? But I'll never perm it for sure, too difficult to manage and I'm lazy to manage it every single day. ~~even though now every single day I will straighten my hair/curl it.~~

OKAY LA at least I keep this blog alive and show you my ~~pretty~~ face right? Wait, who's reading anyway? Hmm maybe my loyal readers such as Angeline, Chris, Sandy, Chong (whom's blog url that I don't know). MAYBE, JUST MAYBE. any readers who have decided not to be a silent reader/stalker anymore? Do drop me a message in the chatbox. :) Alright guess that's all for the update.

P/S: I'm waiting for my convocation, having my internship (finishing in a week's time), going to search for a job (before working I will go and have my own vacation first have all the time I want but got no money) and yupp that's about it. kthxbai. :p

I'm 110% sure this post will make you laugh!

2011-07-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

When the teacher sees me chewing gum:

When you have to sneeze and it won't come out ..

When you're out with your friends;

and you spot a cute guy, at first you're like ..

Then you wait for a sec, and you start to look at each other like

NYEHEHEHHEHE. the last one is so ME!

hope you guys enjoyed this post! :)

of joy.

2011-06-23T00:05:00.002+08:00

Today I went to the Hope Kuching's Life Group for the very first time, went with my sister and my friend, Kah Yee. It was a WA (working adult) combined life group tonight and I really enjoyed myself, with all the laughing session and fellowship time together. Most of all, I felt the joy, not exactly because of I went there and had fun, but because I actually brought my sister and my friend there, and seeing them enjoying themselves and having fun there (i hope), it just gives me the warmth in my heart. I don't really know how to explain but, yeah I hope you get what I mean. Its more like being a parent and seeing your children achieve something? Ah, no, not that, don't really know how to explain it.

Join one and grow together!

Anyway, I will leave everything to God. I actually planned to continue to serve in my old church when I come back but it seems like I have zero plan in that now, and all the plan goes back to the new church, which I didn't plan to go when I come back here. But God, I leave it all to You.

One little testimony. Suddenly it rained heavily around 6 something in the evening, and KY texted me saying, if by 7pm it is still raining, then she can't make it already because we would all get wet when we push her. So then it was already 640pm when I read the text, then I told God. If this is Your will, if this is what You want us to do, this is You wanting us to join them tonight, let the rain stop by 7pm. and YES! the rain stopped, at 7pm sharp! God is good! He heard me :)

Our God is good, all the time! He loves each and everyone of us even before we know and accept Him.

God bless you all :D

Healthy Me ♥

2011-06-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

As you have known, I'm back home for good, and this is what I eat every morning before work.

My mom prepared it for me every morning at 615am, even before I get up from bed. ♥♥ for my mom :)

1) Milo

2) Oats (a smaller portion, usually its 3 times of that)

3) Egg~

See how healthy am I? hehe thanks to my mom and I think I'm gonna gain weight ~~very soon~~ :( I know its a good thing because I'm underweight considering that I'm too skinny for my height :S but still~

♥ When I wake up in the morning, breakfast is always ready on the table. My mum is the best cook! When I don't know the way to somewhere, they will tell me which road to use and best of all, my dad will drive another car in front to guide me to that place. My dad knows the roads in Kuching. I have the most awesome parents ♥ :)

This is what I posted as my Facebook status a while back, and 22 people LIKED it. this shows that they too agree that I have awesome parents hehehehe even though I know they are awesome even if no one liked that status hehee.

INDEED I AM SO BLESSED. Thank You God.

#AspenSpa! enjoy a full Swiss treatment! #MilkADeal

2011-06-06T21:41:00.000+08:00

I seriously need this! desperately! Too bad its not in Kuching!

MAD Deal of the Day: RM49.90 ONLY!! instead of RM155 for 1.5 HOURS of Swiss Signature 5 Element Facial + Hydrating Black Clay Eye Treatment + Anti-wrinkle Neck Treatment and 3 x RM30 Product Voucher at Aspen Spa, 3 Locations.

3 LOCATIONS!! of course its around KL, too bad for me. get this mad deal now!

Bring ur girl friends to #AspenSpa and enjoy a full Swiss treatment! This is sure to turn back time. #MilkADeal

Awesome song by JLS - Love You More.

2011-06-06T20:01:00.000+08:00

Am currently loving this song. its a really nice song and it reminds me of .... :)

Enjoy! I'm sure you will love this song as much as I do.

JLS - Love You More

First day that I saw you thought you were beautiful

But I couldn’t talk to you, I watched you walk away

And it felt like I spent all of that second day trying to figure out what it was that I should have said

Third day saw you again, introduced my friend, said all the words I wanted to

On day four and five and six I don’t know what you did, but all I could think about was you

Thought I couldn’t want you, more than I did before

But everyday I love you a little bit more

Find myself asking what are you waiting for

Cos everyday I love you a little bit more

Days they turn into weeks, that’s how good this has been

Still I can’t believe the way this first year has flown

Still you catch me by surprise, when I look in your eyes

When you turn and say that you love me

Thought I couldn’t want you, more than I did before

But everyday I love you a little bit more (and more)

Find myself asking what are you waiting for (what you waiting for)

Cos everyday I love you a little bit more

(And more)

Love you more

(And more)

I Love you more

(And more)

I Love you more

Hey hey hey hey

Day one I first laid my eyes on you,

Day two I can’t help but think of you

Day three was the same as day two

Day four I fell in love with you

Day five you spent it with me

Sixth day knocked me off my feet

Day seven that’s when I knew spend the rest of my life with you

Thought I couldn’t want you, more than I did before

But everyday I love you a little bit more

Find myself asking (find myself) what are you waiting for (what are you waiting for)

Cos everyday I love you a little bit more

Everyday , knowing I’m going to see your face

And that’s enough for me (that’s enough for me)

I want you more and more and more everyday

(And more)

I wanna spend my life with you

(And more)

Everyday learn something new

(And more)

I love you more and more and more everyday

(And more)

Love you more

(And more)

I love you more

(And more)

Love you more

catch up session with old buddies!

2011-06-06T00:57:00.000+08:00

last Saturday I managed to meet up with my old time buddies, friends since primary one! Daebak~ haha.every time we meet up, I will never fail to laugh til cry (LTC) a new term given by Keira. hahaha we laughed about an old friend, hmmmmm okay now I feel bad. haha.

Diana, Keira, Ting and Angel ~

and me, LTC in action.

i ♥ meeting up with them, can never stop laughing :)

I guess old friends always have things to laugh about at anytime, anywhere and about anything and everything. ♥

of Boyfriend.

2011-05-30T18:37:00.001+08:00

Sorry to disappoint you but no, I don't have a boyfriend yet.

Ever since I had the b-up session in 2009, I'm still single and available up until now. And right now, I'm feeling lonely. Hahahaha okay I guess its because my friends aren't here with me and I'm always home and I've got nothing better to do when I'm not working or sleeping or eating or shopping. I missed going out on dates, like dating with a man you see. Ah, love deprived? Oh not exactly totally LOVE deprived, maybe just from a man? Okay I'm not saying I'm desperate to get a boyfriend now but I'm just, bored. Hahaha. Friends, please come and entertain me!

I met this handsome hunk here at work, and he kind of made me want to fall in love. Hahaha as in because he's handsome so I'm like wishing that my boyfriend would be this kind and blahblahblah. I know I shouldn't judge a book by its cover but still! Just let me have my own day dream will you? I guess I just miss being in a relationship.

Well of course I know God will send me my Mr. Right when its the right time but I know it isn't the right time yet because there's no Mr. Right as of this moment T__T anyway, I was wondering, can people really find their partner when they are so busy with the working world? And still I wonder, can I find mine? (still living in my own world).

Oh, men who dresses smartly and have a clean cut hair (not covering their forehead) are so hot and so charismatic! Wowowo~~ Hahaha okay I'm daydreaming again! Should not judge people by their appearance but that's what everyone sees first, no?

Okay enough of crapping. Blame the hunk that I saw in office made me thought about all these. But, he is one of the main motivation for me to go to work.

Hahahahaha.

*off to daydreaming again.

Boy Recovers Miraculously!

2011-05-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

This is a true story of a boy, Mason Ikirt. I watched this in church today and it was very touching to the point that I cried. A child-like faith is what we should have. We must always believe that there will be miracles and with God, nothing is impossible.

He had 12 strokes. His heart stopped beating. Nobody expects little Mason Ikirt to survive… no one except for his four-year-old sister.

Watch the video below. Its worth the watch.

In case you're unable to watch the video, do read these below.

When two-year-old Mason Ikirt caught a cold from his sister, his parents, Debbie and Steve, weren’t too concerned. But when his fever spiked to 106 and he began having convulsions, they rushed him to the emergency room.

“We had never experienced anything like that before,” Debbie tells The 700 Club. "They explained to us that this was fairly common. That when a temperature goes from 98 to 106, a child can go into what they call a febrile seizure, and they sent him home."

The next day, Debbie and Steve followed up with Mason’s pediatrician.

“They sent him down for x-rays to get some fluid because he was dehydrated and discovered that he had extensive pneumonia on the right side of his chest.”

His parents were told once again not to worry, and Mason was put on antibiotics. A few days later Debbie says, “Mason started turning really pale. We couldn’t get anything down him.”

Steve says, “He got more and more lethargic. He wasn’t moving around. He wasn’t playing.”

They took him back to the hospital. Blood work showed Mason’s platelet count was less than one tenth what it should be. Dr. Michael Vish was on-call at the time. He says, “The pneumonia wasn’t in and of itself the thing that was worrying me the most. He had a few other subtle abnormalities in his labs that were telling me that he was developing a kidney problem.”

It was a condition that can follow pneumonia sometimes, and it’s called the hemolytic uremic syndrome. It feeds on platelets and destroys the red blood cells. There is no cure and no treatment.

Steve recalls, “I asked Dr. Vish again, ‘What are we talking about here?’ He said, ‘Your child is very, very sick. Dying sick.’”

By the next morning, Mason’s platelet count had dropped even more. His kidneys failed, and the disease was spreading to the rest of his body.

“They were setting him up to give him a transfusion to stay ahead of this disease,” says Steve, “and to then purify his blood with dialysis, so that other organs wouldn’t fail.”

Mason had a severe lung infection, but until his platelet count rose, the surgery to remove the infection was too risky. If they operated too soon, Mason could bleed to death. All anyone could do was wait and pray. Three days later, Mason was stable enough to go into the operating room.

Debbie says, “About 3 1/2 hours later, the surgeon called and told us that everything looked fine.”

Suddenly, everything wasn’t fine.

Debbie continues, “I heard over the loudspeaker, ‘Any available surgeon to the OR stat!’ I asked the nurse, ‘Do you think that’s for Mason?’ And she said, ‘I don’t think so, but I’ll check.’ About five minutes she didn’t come back. I knew something was desperately wrong.”

Steve says, “We were praying together and holding each other. His primary internist walked in and took a knee in front of us. When he took that knee, my heart just dropped to the most bottom part of my body.”

“He told us it was worse than he thought,” Debbie says, “that Mason bled out and his heart stopped.”

Mason’s heart didn’t beat for 18 minutes. After he was moved to recovery, Steve talked to the surgeon. He said, “I could see he was choked up, and I said, ‘So what happened?’ He said, ‘I had to manually reach in his chest and pump that heart to keep the blood in his heart.’”

Later that afternoon, Steve discussed the situation with his brother.

“I asked him directly, ‘Do you think that Mason’s gonna die?’ He said, ‘If Jesus wanted this boy, he would’ve been taken. This is a divine situation. If you can’t see that, then you are just blind here. It’s way, way bigger than you and I. Your planning is worthless here. What you need to do is fight with this boy. We need to pray and focus on him, because Jesus Christ hasn’t given up on him.’ I walked into the chapel that night, and I said the Lord’s Prayer. I said, ‘If You want this child, he’s Yours. He was Your lamb before You gave him to us. If You have to take him, then take him, because I can’t manage it anymore.’”

Debbie was also looking to God. She says, “When his heart stopped, it seemed like no matter how I prayed, He wasn’t hearing me. Not until he came out of the recovery room and was on a vent did I hand Mason over to God and said, ‘I don’t know what else to do. If You want him, take him. He’s Your son and let Your will be done.’”

Although Debbie's and Steve’s spiritual outlook had changed, Mason’s condition had not.

Dr. Stephen Keller says, “He actually had multi-organ system failure. When you put all of that together, he certainly had a less than 20 percent chance of surviving based on the medical knowledge that we have.”

Mason’s dismal medical prognosis intimidated everyone except his four-year-old sister, Brooke. She recalls, “My grandma was sitting at the table, and she was worried if he would die. Then I said, ‘It’s okay, John 14:14 will help you. Ask anything in His name and it shall be done.’”

Three days later… “Mason started urinating, which meant his kidneys started working,” says Debbie. “On the fifth day they took him off the vent, and Mason started an encephalopathic cry, which is an uncontrollable, inconsolable cry. They took him down for an MRI and discovered he had 12 strokes.”

The strokes affected the parts of Mason’s brain that control mobility and sight. Doctors warned the Ikirts that he might never walk or see again.

“We believed in nothing but Mason’s 100 percent recovery and healing,” says Debbie. “So we said, ‘Okay, whatever it is, it is and we’ll take him.’”

After nine weeks in intensive care Mason was transferred to a children’s rehab center. Still blind and unable to move or speak, Mason had to be cared for like an infant. He made amazing progress and totally regained his sight. After just three months of rehab, Mason went home. Today, he is a thriving pre-schooler.

Dr. Vish recalls seeing him for the first time after his ordeal. He says, “I didn’t recognize Mason. I didn’t see a sick kid. I saw a happy, well child. I had to look at him hard and think, wow, this is the kid who went through kidney failure, respiratory failure, CPR -- who quite frankly I really didn’t think was going to recover.”

Dr. Robert Fildes concurs, “It's nothing short of a miracle."

“God can move mountains,” Debbie says. “We’ve got proof that that’s absolutely true.”

Taken from here.

God CAN move mountains! we only need to have that leap of faith.

working life = no life.

2011-05-29T02:47:00.001+08:00

been working for 2 weeks now, and I can totally declare that working life is equivalent to no life!

seriously! I need to adjust to this new environment ASAP and get my life back on track. here's my daily routine. waking up at 6am, going off to work at 7am, coming back home at 6pm, bathe, eat and after eating it would be 8pm. make myself busy for few hours then go to bed because I have to wake up at 6am everyday. and I do it everyday over and over again. and on weekends, Saturday I would sleep until after 12pm. and every week I will do the SAME OLD THING. okay sorry I know I should not complain but I really miss my life back in Sabah T___T I miss staying up late and talking to my housemates and going to sleep at 6am. BIG SIGH. such big changes and I need to adapt to it else I'll be doomed. okay enough of ranting.

I totally abandoned my blog for 9 long days! Sorry but I was really lazy and yea u saw my NO LIFE LIFE right? everything is so repetitious and I didn't have time to blog anyway! so let's see. hmmm. some random things.

Singapore Chicken Rice! Same old food I'll be eating for the next 2 months. haha okay maybe I won't order the same thing but I'll be at the same place for 2 months ordering every different dish in the menu because its the nearest place to eat from my working place, and this is not walking distance okay. you want to meet me up for lunch/perhaps see my super professional look? *thickface* hahaha just drop by at SCR Express at Hock Lee Centre! you might just see me there if you're lucky!

oh, not exactly no life. I actually spent 3 days watching this drama.

Endless Love by Wilber Pan and Sandrine Pinna/Zhang Rong Rong.

they make a cute couple no? Wilber still looks so young and cute despite him being 30 and that girl is only 23! Mixed french and chinese blood. pretty, isn't she? Quite an interesting movie, few kiss scenes which is totally hot (unlike other idol dramas who have fake kisses and call it a kiss-excluding ISWAK and TKA). I saw the ratings and it was really low. I wonder why. Its not bad afterall, I enjoyed the drama and not because of those kisses but because of Wilber and the plot, but of course it was a happy ending when all the obstacles were overcame. I only slept 8 hours for 2 days and ended up feeling sleepy at work then I went to toilet and took a nap of 5 minutes there. HAHHAHA okay!

thank you for reading.

going to sleep now. its 2:42am~~ Good nights.

p/s: I'm so happy to see my daily traffic to have an average of 16 unique visitors. hahaha ok la I know its very little comparing to others but STILL! I know no one reads my blog but now I'm happy because I know all 16++ of you are a little concerned with my life. so I will update more!! yay!! so you, please, do help me to do-you-know-what hehehe it motivates me! okthxbai~

of life back in Kuching.

2011-05-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

BEWARE.

This is a wordy post, maybe I'll post one nice picture of myself at the end of this post so just wait :)

Well or u can just click X on the top right :D

Now that I have just started my internship, I'm slowly entering the working world and obviously I do not like it and do not want it but I have no choice because life goes on. I used to sleep at 4am and wake up during noon and now all I do when I'm back home is that, sleep at 12am and wake up at 6! Its like super healthy innit? But I keep waking up in the middle of the night, I guess what my friend said is true - because its not my usual sleeping hour! I feel so tired everyday and I would go to work feeling sleepy if I have nothing to do, and that's a bad thing because I need to write a report on my daily work!

And, currently I'm working in an office, doing the face-the-computer-24/7-job and seriously, it makes me even more sleepy. Therefore, I now declare, that I wouldn't want to sit and face the computer for 24/7, I would want to look for a job that requires me to face more people, for example - I worked with Astro as Customer Service Officer before and I enjoyed it. The reason? Because I get to meet different kinds of people with interesting attitude and behaviour. Some of them makes me piss off, some of them entertained me, some of them made me smiled. I guess I love this kind of job. Job recommendation please?

Of my life back in Kuching, still unsettled. many other things that I have yet to decide and I have no idea how to decide. I'm not sure which church to attend now, to go back to my old church or to go to the church that I always go back in Sabah. Maybe I'm just afraid of the commitment. Another, when I'm done with intern, I have to start looking for a job, perhaps? Or else there won't be any income :( I do want to rest and play but all needs cash, and no work means no cash. haha sounds so broken English. anyway!

I'm kinda liking this intern place of mine, of course I still need time to adjust myself to the environment but I can't see myself working for this company in the future, or maybe just not in this department (its not that they want to hire me anyway~) I have no idea what job am I gonna have in the future and I really don't feel like working T___T In short, I don't wanna grow up!

Now that I'm back here and I'll have my room all by myself PERMANENTLY, I'm gonna clean it and beautify it as pretty as possible! heh. and oh, I might clear all my stuff and see what can I bring out and sell. Good way to gain profit no? But who's gonna buy my stuff?! Its not that I have a lot of things to sell anyway and I don't know anyone who wants to buy my used stuff and no one reads my blog anyway and so no one will know that I'm selling anything at all. So please tell me how! I need to get rid of those things but I want to earn some cash from it too. Maybe bring to pasar malam? Hahaha any pasar malam place to introduce in Kuching please?!

Okay la since maybe you read all this useless crap that I wrote above just to see my face (or maybe you just scroll down right til the end T__T I don't mind anyway), there you go, my pretty face :D

My professional look (actually it's my usual presentation look - outfit as well haha)

So how do you like my picture! Most people said I have the OL (Office Lady) look. Hahahaha. I'll take that as a compliment. That was the third day after work. My previous post was the second day, but didn't take photo of the first day (too horrible). Hahaha okay enough I only took pictures of myself for that 2 days.

Okthxbai hahahahaha.

Thanks for reading!

Please click the you-know-what if you like it :))

xoxo

of internship in Kuching.

2011-05-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

As you all have known, I'm back home for good, internship for 12 weeks then I'll just have to wait for my convocation :DD

Am currently working for a big company, placed under the General Trade and Services department, and WOW the name of the department itself doesn't sound too pleasing to me. I assume I wouldn't like it very much. Went to work on Monday, then Tuesday was a PUBLIC HOLIDAY YAY THANK GOD! My first day, I was very shocked because I had so many things to learn at one go (this lady taught me everything on the first day and now we have nothing to do) and it made me super stress because I thought I won't be able to cope it. Plus, I wasn't properly introduced to the rest of the people there, so I'm now stuck with the people that I work with, and so I felt a little uneasy, but I still kept that smile on my face. well at least I have someone to talk to (only the pregnant lady) :)

This lady who taught me everything, she's 8 months pregnant and going on maternity leave very very soon, and the worst thing of all is that, I have to settle all the claims within the first 10 days of the month (my work is to make claims) and next month June, I only have 5 days to settle it considering June 1st and 2nd would be public holiday again yay! then Saturday Sunday. T_____T how am I able to cope it. I pray that she would still be in the office by then. Her baby will due on the 16th June. haha.

Anyway, I almost dozed off these 2 days despite sleeping for 16 hours! I guess the work is pretty boring for me. Pray that I'll be able to make it interesting and to love it, especially I'm gonna be left alone there with no one helping me T_____T kays, going to bed now. I have not started with my report, sleepy just by thinking about it. hahaha.

ah, and I'm working at an industrial area where there's no food nearby (as in nearby), there's shop opposite the road though, but have to walk a distance. HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE FOR 3 MONTHS THERE?! gonna go on diet perhaps? HAHHAAH. :p

okay enough of ranting. here's a picture of myself that I took on the way home (at the traffic light) hahaha.

my awesome long hair! haha it looks too fake no? gonna trim it soon. I love it when its all wavy but I totally dislike it when its all straight because it shows my grass-like hair! :(

EVERYONE'S HOME~

2011-05-17T23:09:00.000+08:00

Everyone was back during the weekends for my mom's birthday celebration. hehehe as usual,

The Sims! Do we all look alike? :)

kthxbai. :D

p/s: the starting of my internship makes me feel lazy in doing everything.

my babes ♥

2011-05-14T04:08:00.001+08:00

May 14th 3:30am, my flight back to Kuching is at 7:40am later. This time I'll be back for good.

No more going back for a month or two, packing and unpacking, and then looking forward to come back here.

This time, I packed ALL my stuffs, and yes as a person who has a lot of things (that's me) for sure my luggage will be overweight. and true enough, all the rubbish that I have collected for 3 years, accumulated for approximately 49 kgs (excluding the ones that I threw away) and MAS only allows 20 kg. Shucks. I shipped back 13 kgs of stuff, 20 kgs in my big luggage, 10 kgs in my hand carry luggage, and gonna ship back another 6 kgs of rubbish. T_T Thank you so much, MAS!

Anyway, everything has settled.

Here's my babes. ♥ them lots!

My always and forever friends who has been with me throughout these 3 years of university life. Never fail to entertain me and be able to stick with me, guiding and teaching me a lot in terms of assignments and exams and such, for being able to stand my sucky-but-not-so-sucky attitude, orang gunung style of myself, always complaining (i must repent! haha) and stalking on other people and then tell you guys about it! thank you so much for being there for me. All those good times, good memories, will forever be etched in my heart. You all know how much I love you guys ♥

and this is the special case friend, Chong Yen Ling, THE CHONG! not my coursemate but still we hung out together as if we see each other everyday, which we don't. Doraemon lover and definitely a good friend, always being there for me as well and always say OKAY to almost anything, except ... other stuffs, which I don't remember. oh wait, or things such as deciding what movie to watch and where to eat. as chesu as she can get, she is one of my babes here in university who always help me in everything that she can, and can be as annoying as ever! Love you too, I know you always stalk on my blog and even when just now I asked you to go away because I wanted to blog, I saw u checking out my blog on the other laptop! thanks for being a loyal reader as well, haha and please, after reading, you know what you should do. if not, ASK ME. or I might slap you. hehe. EH PLEASE BE PROUD BECAUSE ITS AN INDIVIDUAL PHOTO OF YOU AND ME HERE WHERE THE REST ARE IN GROUP PHOTO. hahahaha how do you like that capslock? :DD

Lastly, my church members.

they're not actually my babes hehehe only the ones mentioned above. they are also a big part of my life here. always meeting up to serve God together for these 3 years, I've learnt a lot and grew a lot in my spiritual life and my language too! I thank all of you who have taught me, be it big or small things. I learnt a lot from all of you, proving that the love of God is truly awesome. I love you guys hehehe. Going to miss you all, especially the ones who have been with me since the first semester, Chris, Diana, Angie, Andrew, the closest ones to me ♥ And now I also have the rest of you including Ling Ming ♥ you all helped my Chinese to improve tremendously! ♥

Don't worry, I will be back! I will come and visit you guys and we shall make a reunion here again. Please do visit me in Kuching, and wait for me to travel to Perak, KL and back to Sabah!

My life will change 360 again after going back to Kuching, a new chapter of my life will begin, this chapter will end soon. Not so looking forward to this new chapter but life still has to go on. Will see where God will lead me.

You all are the best gifts from God in this chapter of my life ♥

Unbelievable first ever Kpop group in Malaysia.

2011-05-09T10:56:00.002+08:00

When I first read about this, I got a shock of my life. Once I saw their pictures, it automatically reminded me of my favourite group 2PM because of their shirtless photos and only wearing the vests!

Here's Korean Beast Idol Group~

2PM!

Look at those pretty faces.

and their hot bodies!

and cute side of them!

see what I mean?

and here's our first ever Malaysian Kpop Group. (i have no idea why is it called Kpop group when its in Malaysia?!)

PLEASE DONT PUKE.

this is 24:7 (now known as Band Max 247)

and this is 2PM.

check out the one in 247 was touching his face! exactly the same pose as Nichkhun T______T

more of Band Max 247.

acting cute and all Kpop-ish!

okay last picture.

here it goes.

*
*

OH.MY.GOSH.

okay I'm not trying to condemn anyone here but, hello. those are Kpop idol groups and they're Koreans (one Thai) but they have everything to make them Kpop idols! and we're in Malaysia, we don't have to copy them/imitate them, they are special in their own hot bodies (and because they have the hot bodies, and so they flaunt it) but this, you don't have it T_T and our Malaysian bands are all talented and unique in their own ways, so why bother to imitate. ohmygosh I totally could not believe this when I read it.

T______T

P/S: totally no intention to condemn them. let's see how things goes.

my babe Sandy~

2011-05-05T01:17:00.000+08:00

hello! today its your big day!

Happy 23rd Birthday!!

SANDY ~~

I guess I don't have to repeat my stories again and again. haha read here and here for the previous birthday posts.

My best friend, thank you for being by my side in these 3 years and I know distance will not separate us from one another :) I will always remember you and those moments that we had together and more to come!

Love you much!

P/S: Enjoy studying on your birthday :P

P/PS: Please get married earlier so I can be your bridesmaid :))

I know you know I love you. I also know you know me well. And I also know you know I know you well. Teeheee XOXO~

of Christianity.

2011-05-04T04:35:00.000+08:00

I've been a Christian all my life (a sleeping Christian that is) until I came over to Sabah.
to cut the story short, read here for my story as a Christian. here for the things that I have learnt as a Christian, here for forgiveness, here and here for the stories regarding the recent earthquakes.

Firstly, I would like to share the story of a biscuit tin:

If you were hungry, and I came to you with a biscuit tin, lid sealed, and I told you that if you opened the lid, you would see biscuits and you could have your hunger met. You had a choice to make. You might take up the tin; shake it a bit. No sound inside. Weigh it. It felt very light. You couldn't see the biscuits, touch them nor feel them. So you might say, "No, she must be lying. I don't believe there are biscuits inside". And you might walk away with your hunger. Or you might stop and say to yourself, "Maybe there's something in what she is saying. Why don't I give it a try? After all, what have I got to lose? If there were not biscuits, then I;d only be as hungry as I am now. But if there truly were biscuits inside, then my need would be met".

This story of a biscuit tin applies in the same situation as believing in God.

anyway, read this from Cheryl's blog, her story.
*extracted from her blog.

This is my story.
I came to Sabah, didn't wanna get involved in church. Sick of it actually.
Because of rules and regulations in serving in a church.
So I did. I guess God really tried to settle me in a church throughout my first year in UMS.
But I refused. In one academic year, I barely went to church.
Off I ran.

Then He sent Cass to UMS.
And I started going to church. **story to be continued in another post =P**

Looking back, I realised, whether I wanted it or not.
He's already working in my life, without me knowing it.
He's already reaching out to me, when I felt I was strong alone.

If you're chosen, He'll woo you. You're His bride.
Until you fall in love with Him.
His love is unconditional.

Chosen for a great purpose. A destiny.
A passion worthy dying for, a purpose worth living for.

I always find myself weeping, by this Love I know I don't deserve.
By this love, broken I will ask, "Why did You love me so much. I don't deserve You."
Because so many times, I have broken His heart.
Through this attitude, imperfections of being human.
But I'm thankful.
Because of that, I am humbled by who He is.
Reminded again and again, that His love never fails.

Because nothing we can ever do, could make Him love us less.
You, me, him, her. Them. Us. Even the one who hurt you.

His love is unconditional.

And His love taught me how to forgive,
When all I could do is swear to hell.
When all I could do hate.

He turns my hatred into love, when He died for me.
That's on true love.

******

Anyway, my main purpose is, He is already here for you even though you don't know Him and may have doubts about Him because He is One that you can't see or touch just like this post here that I posted, but trust that He is there, when no one cares about you, or things that you think no one cares, He cares. He is always there. trust that He is always there by your side. He is a living God, we don't only praise and worship Him in a one-way communication but He speaks to us in different ways. When we sense there is something wrong, it is God who speaks to us. He is telling us that whatever we are doing is wrong. But somehow, I just can't understand, how can anyone keep doing the wrong thing when he/she KNOWS EXACTLY THAT IT IS WRONG??

these words came to my mind again. sometimes, just sometimes, and just sometimes. and only sometimes. when I try to forget those things, sometimes it will just come back to my mind and keep reminding me (I'm assuming this is the work of the devil) and it just makes me trying to distance myself. so no matter how hard I've tried, the distance is always there and it will always be there.

ANYWAY, back to topic. He is the one and only one who truly loves us for who we are. Our weaknesses, our insignificant lives, all our imperfections, only He cares. only He will stand strong for us. when you think that there are other people who truly cares, there will always be some that will turn your back on you. that is LIFE in this world. but fret not, our life is beyond this world.

so try God today! you have no harm in trying!

Borneo International Marathon!

2011-04-30T22:35:00.000+08:00

HOLA. This will be my first time joining an international marathon, as you can see from the title. YUP its the Borneo International Marathon!

It will be held tomorrow May 1st 2011, of course there are many categories such as full marathon (40km), half marathon (20km), 10km and also charity fun run (2km). Try and guess which category am I joining?!

I'd Rather Be Running!

and I'm joining the~~~ Charity Fun Run!! hahahaha DO NOT LAUGH! its for charity, we paid RM15 for running/walking purposes but all of the RM15 will go to charity. Plus we have no freebies :(( not even a T-Shirt, such a big disappointment.

Anyway, we faced some difficulties just now while trying to get our race pack (assuming we have freebies as well) but before getting there, I realised our payment didn't go through! (i paid using debit card btw) and there were like so many people queuing to get their respective race pack (for full marathon) so we asked the people there regarding our registration and how and such. she kept asking us to wait wait wait for the PIC to come, by the time the PIC reached, she entertained the full marathoners first (am assuming because they paid more cash so they're on top of the priority?) We waited for some time probably almost an hour? what fish is this waited so long and we were actually waiting to give them money! (i mean charity) totally pissed off and we didn't even get to go to the Pasta Party because she said they actually counted those who paid only! its not my fault that the payment didn't go through right?!! pffffft.

So, everything is done, waiting for tomorrow! It's gonna be interesting, lots of people would be running hehehe and we're gonna run with kids? i assume so since its 2km! YAY!

see you there!

of blogshops that i always visit.

2011-04-29T01:52:00.001+08:00

ONE OF MY GREATEST ADDICTION: SHOPPING ONLINE. which girl doesn't?! unless you're weird. :P

and since I was requested by a friend (cough ehem cough Cas) to blog about where I buy my stuff online, so here I am :D

i don't always buy things online but just occasionally because obviously, its much cheaper than Kuching and KK plus I don't go to KL (too poor to purchase air ticket and NO I don't swim nor use bus to KL FYI!)

so hmmm, let me see. I've bought maybe less than 10 items online? Contact lenses, bags, dresses, tops, purse, tank tops and HP pouch? That's only 7. hahaha. here's where I bought my stuff.

Most recent one, long slim purse RED colour ♥

From MELODYLOVEFASHION

Contact lenses, i always buy from the same place.

CLASSICGEOLENS

HP Pouch, front view.

Back view, with my name stitched on it :)

ONELOVECOTTAGE

BAGS!! The items i bought the most are of course bags! we can never have enough bags :D

this is one awesome bag heh bought this for like RM40+ inclusive of postage. click HERE to see another 2 bags that I bought.

JIMFASHION

used to buy from JIMFASHION but I went back to the same seller and she told me she's not selling JIMFASHION's bag anymore T_T devastated. so I checked online and found JIMFASHION's email and he told me that I can order from HERE

FASTER THANK ME! hahahaha

Long tee, i bought both black and white for RM10 EACH! super duper extremely CHEAP and the materials are good as well! also bought some other tank tops.

TANKSFOR5

other dresses and tops @ LADYCUTE and INSTYLESTORE but I don't recommend you to buy from ladycute, the material is some cheapskate kind (no wonder its so cheap) and plus the postage everything isn't that cheap anymore and plus! its pre-order I had to wait like 2 months plus just for one top. haha

TADAH okay I just shared everything I bought online with you guys. please thank me. and yes you're welcome. haha now you shall go and spread the online shopping addiction with cheap and nice stuff!

oh and additional blogshop, JLCLOSET nice clothes, all those clothes are pretty much the same as other blogs and its even cheaper, at a standard price of RM28 for all items! its a must-buy (or browse if you have no intention to buy)! I have yet to buy from this blogshop but I guess its not bad, shall try it out soon when I have the cash.

HAVE FUN BROWSING!

of Science and God.

2011-04-27T16:13:00.001+08:00

Professor: You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in God?

Student: Absolutely, sir.

Professor: Is God good?

Student: Sure.

Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn’t. How is God good, then? Hmm?

(Student was silent)

Professor: You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Is Satan good?

Student: No.

Professor: Where does Satan come from?

Student: From.. God.

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student: Yes.

Professor: So who created evil?

(Student didn’t answer)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them?

(Student had no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever
seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of
God, for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.

Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student: No, sir, there isn’t.

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student: You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it’s called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The class was in uproar)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class broke out into laughter)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.

Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!
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That student was Albert Einstein.

Brilliant.

Beautifully done.

BROMANCE.

2011-04-27T10:06:00.000+08:00

I watched this video some time back, its a video from Ryan Higa. funny as usual but its more interesting because Jay Park is in it!

and the bloopers made me LOL-ed like mad.

Enjoy!

Strangers, again.

2011-04-27T09:39:00.000+08:00

Every relationship goes through stages. Where and how each stage develops is ultimately up to each person. While we always hope for the best, we often can't avoid the inevitable.

Josh and Marissa are at a crossroads and their future is uncertain. Josh guides us through each stage of the relationship as it formed and as he predicts it will end up as.

*****

I guess they missed out the stage, friendship. All of us, if not most of us (including me) skipped the friendship part. It all started too quickly. The moment you thought you have met the most amazing person (because you had that spark with him) and the next thing you know, both of you wants to start a special relationship without even getting to know one another well. And then again, time passes by where you slowly get to know him, and BAM he is not like you think he is. So, here comes the problem and everything ended badly. Its good for those who are able to maintain your relationship but always take it easy and do not rush into a relationship.

That, is actually a cycle.

From strangers to friends to lovers and back to strangers again.

How funny is that, we started off as strangers and eventually ended up as strangers again?

What's in my bag?

2011-04-27T08:46:00.000+08:00

OKAY this is a random post.

So, what's exactly in my bag? Seems like my bag is always full of stuff because I always have a hard time searching for things in my bag.

My favourite bag. I use it almost everywhere I go. Cheap bag RM35 from Jimfashion blogshop.

Here's the items.

Item #1.

Super huge mirror. I can't live without a mirror. :)

Item #2.

Its still in my bag even though i don't comb my hair, except after washing to get back the partings.

Item #3.

Nikon Coolpix S230. Its not always in my bag because its too heavy and the camera quality kinda sucks.

Item #4.

My glasses. I can't see without them. Since I rarely wear lenses anymore, they are my eyes! (not that I'm completely blind without them, just that everything looks blurry and I hate it if I can't really see)

Item #5.

Stole this fan from my sister. :D

Item #6.

Useless pouch (taking up the space in my bag), its for my earphones.

Item #7.

A bag within a bag. :)

Item #8 and #9.

Slim long purse from MELODYLOVEFASHION and small coin purse.

Item #10.

Mentos!

Item #11.

Keys. Hahaha everyone keep their keys in their bag, no?

Item #12.

Sony Ericsson W810i.

Lastly,

Item #13.

My baby HTC Legend. Read about the birth of my baby here.

Okay, obviously i google-d the pictures of both my phones, because I was using my phone to snap these pictures and I was too lazy to use my camera.

So, 13 items in my bag. What's in your bag?

the horrorness of myself.

2011-04-27T07:33:00.001+08:00

This, is a HORROR post of myself.

Check out how much I've changed. For more pictures, please click here , its a post that I wrote back in February, all about myself throughout the years.

Horror #1

This is by far the most horror time of my life! After Form Six. Look at my hair gosh looks like grass! Yup I know, hair plays a very very important role in our appearance.

Horror #2
The first year of university. Actually, its not THAT horror hehehehe.

I guess there are more horror pictures of myself, ain't gonna post it here so if you want to see those fugly photos of mine, read all the entries in my blog. :)

So anyway, besides the horror pictures and the changes in my appearance, I realised that I changed quite a lot in this 3 years here in university. Like what, u may ask? Hmm I might say, the way I write (please read back from the very beginning to see how sucky i was, not that im not sucky now but much better), the way I dress, the way I make-up (basic eyeliner, mascara and blusher only; back in the days I have zero makeup!) the way I see things (trying to be more matured as I am growing older), the way I control my temper (I think I'm doing pretty good comparing to last time), the things that I like (such as I'm a Korean freak now, into fashion and trying to dress up prettily) and yada yada lots more. Well, if you want to know how much I've changed, easypie! just have to read my blog from April 2011 all the way back to September 2008. FYI I really have no idea why do I keep asking you to read my blog from the very beginning.

Oh and by the way, check out this photo, which was way back in 2008.

with Jade and Sandy.

And this is the current us.

Okay obviously this is during our course dinner. So, how much have I changed?

I guess i grew fatter and NO I'm not happy about it because I gained weight at the wrong body parts (tummy and legs; how I wish I have legs like SNSD chicks!!). Ah, I'll just shut up because I'm gonna get screwed by those who are heavier than me. *YOU'RE SO SKINNY! WHAT FAT! IF YOU'RE FAT THEN I'M WHAT? ELEPHANT?!* uh yea that's what people always tell me when I complain that I'm fat. :(

immashaddapnowokthxbai.

Expectations is the root to all heartaches.

2011-04-27T02:11:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt like you have everything you've ever wanted but everything just seems too good to be true?
have you ever felt like everything seems to be going on smoothly but the next second everything turns so wrong?
have you ever felt like you were not appreciated?
have you ever felt like no one gives a damn about you?
have you ever felt like everything seems so shitty and you just don't wanna talk about it but you wish there is someone who understands it even when we don't talk about it?
have you ever felt like you wish you can share every single thing and vice versa but too bad you are not the one?
have you ever felt like you are feeling so shitty and yet you have no idea why?

maybe, and just maybe, expectations is the root to all heartaches.

Show me how to love like You have loved me.

2011-04-24T20:35:00.000+08:00

A very beautiful song, Hosanna. i love it, particularly this verse. Do listen to it :)

Heal my heart and make it clean, open up my eyes to the things unseen, show me how to love like you have loved me.

I see the king of glory

Coming on the clouds with fire

The whole earth shakes

Yeeeah

I see his love and mercy

Washing over all our sin

The people sing

[Chorus]

Hosanna

Hosanna in the highest [x2]

I see a generation

Rising up to take their place

With selfless faith

I see a near revival

Stirring as we pray and seek

We're on our knees

[Chorus]

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours

Everything I am for your kingdoms cause

As I go from nothing to

Eternity

[Chorus x2]

Hosanna in the highest

God Bless :))

Hillsongs - God Will Make a Way.

2011-04-24T20:31:00.000+08:00

This is a song where I personally feel encouraged after listening to it and read the lyrics. He definitely will make a way, and He always works in ways that we cannot see.

God will make a way

Where there seems to be no way

He works in ways we cannot see

He will make a way for me

He will be my guide

Hold me closely to His side

With love and strength

For each new day

He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness

He'll lead me

And rivers in the desert will I see

Heaven and earth will fade

But His Word will still remain

He will do something new today

BE ENCOURAGED :)

F(x) So Into U.

2011-04-22T14:26:00.001+08:00

Currently on a repeat mode in my playlist. This song is stuck in my head. Enjoy this song.

Untitled Chapter.

2011-04-22T13:42:00.000+08:00

A few weeks left to be here, and I'm having that mixed feelings again. Times when i think that i'm not lonely, it is the time when i am the most lonely. I wish everything would be back to old times, I do not have to face with all these things that are troubling my mind. Exams approaching, studying mood is no where around me, but I have to suck it all up and force myself to do it. Many things are running through my mind, studies, people, future, friendships, life. I don't know how to reorganize all these things in my mind. Everything just seems so complicated. Happy on the outside, does not mean I'm truly happy on the inside.

The Easter Season.

2011-04-22T12:33:00.002+08:00

Today is Good Friday. What exactly is Good Friday, if you may ask?

Good Friday is the day where we Christians remember this day that Jesus died on the cross for us, you and I. He was nailed to a wooden cross by the Roman soldiers. He didn't have to die, but He did it for us mankind so that we will be freed spiritually. This is a prove that He died for us out of love.

John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

God loved the world so He gave His only Son Jesus to die on the cross for you and I so that we will have eternal life. Eternal life here means a life beyond this world, after we all die from this world, the earth.

Fret not, our God is a living God for Jesus rose back from the dead after 3 days!

HE IS RISEN!

Have a Happy Easter everyone.

God bless you :)

some random facts about me.

2011-04-22T00:21:00.001+08:00

1) I can never start a conversation with unknown people.

2) I may look like I'm a very unfriendly person at first, but I'm actually very nice (if you get to know me)

3) I'm someone who speaks very loud. like, VERY loud.

4) I listen to Chinese songs, and Korean, but seldom listen to English songs.

5) I like to stick with my parents, as in go out with them (forcing them to go out with me actually).

6) I don't go to pubs/clubs/bars. I actually dislike those places because of the smoky and noisy environment but I don't know why people assume I'm a person who clubs a lot.

7) I'm a meat-person. I dislike eating veggies.

8) I don't like staying at home, I prefer to go out.

9) Being the youngest in the family DOES NOT mean I will get EVERYTHING ANYTHING I want.

10) I get annoyed easily especially when a person keep on repeating what he/she did before that I have already mentioned that I don't like it.

11) I try to be nice to everyone but honestly I dislike it when people take it for granted (who likes it anyway?)

Alright, this is some random facts about me. And,

This is me.

When I was in my first semester, way back in 2008.

I was just wasting my time because I didn't want to continue my revision. T_T back to work. kthxbai.

of Chinese words. 我也会写中文的～

2011-04-21T08:16:00.000+08:00

到时候离开学生的生活了。。

感觉到很伤心。。在大学我学了很多。。

认识了好多好多的朋友。。有好的坏的还有那种看到很想打下去的人。。

认识了三年。。这不是很长的时间，也不是很短。。

但是，在这里认识了他们，我在大学的日子过了很开心。

有笑有哭，我永远也不会忘记你们的！

朋友们，我知道你知道你是谁~~呵呵呵呵～～

我爱你们～～

PS: 我的华语不错吧？哈哈哈哈~~

Translation: Now, its time to leave a student's life.. Feeling very sad. I've learnt a lot in university. Made many friends, good, bad, and also those when I see them, I feel like beating them (in my case, slapping). Known each other for 3 years, this is not a long time, nor a very short time. But, getting to know them here, I have been very happy in my university life. There were laughters, tears, I will never forget all of you. Friends, I know you know who you are. Hehehehe. I love you guys.

PS: My Chinese ain't that bad right? Hahahaha

PPS: this is my very first time typing out Chinese sentences, and NO I did not copied it from anywhere. I am so proud of myself and I have to say, feelings are best expressed with Chinese language. heh although my Chinese is seriously very limited, and I can't read Chinese, but I still think that expressing our feelings using Chinese is very meaningful and the words just speaks right to your heart. :DD

Suddenly, after typing in Chinese, I got lost in translating it back to English (very direct translation, I know). Hah. My bad. Thanks for reading my lousy Mandarin :) xoxo.

Fasting.

2011-04-21T01:00:00.001+08:00

Currently, this is what I was doing for the past 2 days and will continue until 12th May.

No, I'm not trying to fast for dieting purposes (I can never do that, anyway) but I'm actually fasting from Facebook and Twitter, as I've said in my previous post. I did this last semester, fasting Facebook before my study break and it lasted for a month. However, this time I'm fasting less than a month (I have no idea why, not much of determination i guess) and I'm now entering day three of fasting. It's a little bit suffering this time as I'm fasting BOTH of the top websites that I visit daily. Previously I was still able to depend on my Twitter but now I'm totally disconnected from the world. (Thank God for tumblr now)

I can see that even though I'm not on Facebook and Twitter and I'm SUPPOSED to be studying right now (exam is on Monday and its already Thursday) but i still find other things to fill my ~~free~~ time, such as Tumblr, Youtube and also some other Korean shows to watch. that's what we call PROCRASTINATION. well, I really do not want to screw up my last chance, so I'll have to fight these temptations.

Anyway, some things happen to be pretty hard to speak out even though that's what you really want to say but some things just seem to be unspeakable. As of right now, the title of Jay Chou's 開不了口 suits me well. But at least I tried. Some things may not be as complicated as how I view it, but we will never know what is the truth, and I don't exactly want to know it. I'm happy just as I am now.

-just some random thought of mine on two different things-

of the Exam Season.

2011-04-18T03:42:00.001+08:00

its almost time.

for this again.

this will be my last exam in my whole life, as you all have known that I'm in my final semester of my 3-years course, unless i take up MBA which is most likely to be impossible. for those who still doesn't know what course am I taking in University Malaysia Sabah (FYI UMS is in Sabah, Sabah is in Borneo), I'm taking International Business course where we learn almost everything about international stuff and little bit of everything in business from marketing, operations management, trade, human resource management to finance and such.

im pretty sure when I'm studying for my finals, I will end up like this and most probably it will only occur ~~the day befor~~e few days before my exam.

this.

and during final exam, i wish i would be like this.

pouring out everything that I have learnt, read, studied and memorized on to that one whole booklet in every paper that I will be sitting for.

As always, let's see my final exam schedule.

Week One.

Monday 25th April Strategic Management

Thursday 28th April Issues in International Business

Week Two.

Friday 6th May International Operations Management

Week Three.

Tuesday 10th May Tourism Planning and Development

Thursday 12th May International Management

5 papers for my final semester. pray that I will be able to get good grades for this final semester in order to pull up my CGPA. heh I'm sure I can do it, have FAITH in God :)

FYI, my exam finish on the 12th, I'll be flying back to Kuching on the 14th, and my internship starts on the 16th. Totally have no time for playing / resting after exam and I can't even stay longer in Sabah, but that's alright since our convocation date is on the 11th to 13th November 2011, I will come back earlier for sure! Ah, talking about convo dates, thanks to our convo, I have to burn my BKK tickets because i booked tickets to BKK on the 12th to 15th November. :( PLUS I'm burning another ticket to KL, on the 25th November because everyone will be back in Kuching for church convention. I'm so smart in choosing the dates, all the dates clashes and we've got to burn those tickets, there goes our money! :(

too long of an FYI heh. another one BTW I'll be fasting from Facebook and maybe Twitter in few more days to come, supposingly TODAY but due to unforeseen circumstances, I postponed it. heh. This is to avoid me from having too many distractions, and also to spend more time on STUDYING as i have stated above I would want to get good grades.

kthxbai. :)

IB Family.

2011-04-17T07:25:00.000+08:00

To my dearest IB family,

Even though we only got closer in our final year, but I'm really glad that it was not too late, for the saying goes, it is better to be late than never.

Last class ended with tears and laughters, and that shows how much we care and love for one another even though some of us might not be that close or may not like one another that much but the feeling of family is still there and we will always be a family.

For sure, I am going to miss you guys a lot and each one of you are irreplaceable.

Everyone from different background, different races, different beliefs, different characters, we are united as one. IB rocks max!

I will begin another new chapter in my life very soon. May we all will be successful in our future endeavors! Always remember that I'll love you guys. :)

bits and pieces of my university life.

2011-04-14T01:08:00.001+08:00

Last Sunday we went to Mahua Waterfall with our IB gangs and our awesome lecturer, Kage. this is somewhat like our final bonding session together as we will be having our last class together tomorrow, and within a month's time, everyone would be going back to their own respective hometown, without knowing when will we ever meet again.

we gathered at Kingfisher HEP @ 730-8am, then departed to Kage's house in Donggongon. his house is like 714638197 miles away i felt that the whole journey took us a long time to reach his house.

us! in front of his house. of Malaysian chinese, China chinese, Indians, Malays, Kadazans, we all get along well. i love them :)

usual ones~

Sandy ~

Jade Ooi~~ usual four in the car.

we stopped by at petrol station to refill the fuel before proceeding to our 2-hour journey to Tambunan and some of us went to buy some snacks to munch on.

Emmy, Hilda, Sandy, Yean Yeon and Andy~

Evelyn and I~~

Pink driver.

Jia Qi and fellow comrades.

Sahrir and all~

Mat Noor? Mila's boyfriend, Fei Tze and Fong Mein behind.

Hilda's car.

Khairul and the gang.

andddddd.

convoy! awesome possum no?! 8 cars altogether!

we then reached our destination but unfortunately it was raining quite heavily, so we had to rest first and waited for a while. while waiting, we thought of Sir Jaratin, and so they did his trademark pose.

rabbit pose! his favourite. hahaha although he didnt get to join us that day, but we still remember him. hehehe.

Kage Musha~

Welcome to Taman Banjaran Crocker! the way to Mahua Waterfall, about 500 meters away.

us :)

this is like the most awesomest view ive ever seen. okay i know that means that i have a lot more to see in life. :D super awesome okay!

reached there, dropped our bags on the tables and chairs and pooooof. off we went to play~~~~

the water was like, super cold brrrrrrrrrr i was literally trembling and shaking like mad when i was in the water and when i got up! seriously its like i was soaked in ice water/refrigerator! i was too chicken to get to the middle so i stayed by the side next to the rock. missed out the awesome chance, but i was too afraid to risk my life. hah. due to my near-death experience some time ago.

this is, the usual us. :)

Kartik and Sahrir, gay-wannabe.

im proud to be the photographer of this awesome picture.

interracial relationship. Belle and Kartik. HAHHAHA okay la not real relationship, just scandalous.

superb view behind!

sylvia and sharan, pretty and niceee :D

and this is me, totally shaking when i asked Jade to take my picture because i actually asked her to take multiple times. since were not gonna go back there anytime soon and i wanted a super nice picture but ended up all are not awesome pictures because of my hair condition and it was super cold there. T_T

soaked ourselves in water and played for about 1 hour, time passed by super slow i thought we played for about 2 hours or so. hahha then went to bathe and get changed, and since the bath room was full and we had to queue super long, i decided to bathe outside, behind the bath rooms using a pipe. hahaha because my whole body itched like mad i had to bathe as soon as possible, so i kind of took my bath there, of course with clothes on. i even washed my hair with shampoo there. hahaha great experience afterall! anyway, after the waterfall trip, we went back to Kage's house for BBQ! ohsome~~

girls playing while the guys doing some preparation for BBQ~~

aen aen pretty and cute and hamsap girl, always like to touch people. hahaha with grace.

andy, smart guy and potential writer.

Kis and Belle, two BFFs.

the one who BBQ-ed for us the whole night is the one squatting down. hehehehe :D

photoshoot session? chooi ni and aen aen~~

evelyn~~

fei tze playing guitar in Kage's son's room. ehems.

Fong Mein~

Hilda~ my classmate since form 6.

Jia Qi, the only international student who joined us for the trip. hehehe he's too localized already!

jie ying~

karien~

kis~~ always a cheerful and funny girl. thank God its never too late to get to know her. hehehe.

Ms Rini and son ~~

Sahrir~~ only get to talk to him this semester despite being classmates for like, 3 years?! haha

Soo Leng, myself and Grace.

Soo Leng ~

as usual, hamsap Sylvia and Jade~

achi~~ Kage's son~ super cute!!

after the dinner, some of us went to clean the house and stuff while the others stayed outside and listened to his ghost story telling. scary! thank God i was busy in the kitchen washing those pots hahahaha am never interested in listening to these kind of stories. BTW he can see 'them' so he has a lot of stories to tell. there are a lot in my school too! School of Business and Economics in UMS! haha i think every university also have their own story, no?

sylvia and kage~

finally, after all story telling and cleaning done, we all headed back to our respective homes by 9 something, reached home at 10 pm. got to rush because those staying in hostels need to be back by 11, blame the curfew! we can actually ignore the curfew, since we are in final year hehh!! but they are just too obedient ;p

FAMILY PICTURE!

a picture without Kage because he was the one who took this picture. this was on the way to Tambunan, nice view!

and lastly,

a family portrait! not everyone attended though, but it was a very memorable trip for me. i am going to miss them so much. thinking that we are going to part ways in exactly a month time, not knowing when are we going to meet again (except during convocation). this was one good bonding session that we had, but im glad that it is never too late for us to get to know one another. coursemates that i never talk to all these while, im proud to say that i now speak to each and everyone of my coursemates. heh!

people say, university mates are those that we cant forget, because we have so much memories together in such a short time. xoxo my fellow coursemates!

this is going to be an unforgettable memory.

of Japan Earthquake 070411

2011-04-08T01:11:00.002+08:00

please please please please please READ TIL THE END!

He will always welcome us with open arms.

as i was reading the news and browsing through facebook with all the links posting up about the japan earthquake just an hour ago, i was reminded of the book of Matthew in the bible. as i was reading the passage of Signs of the End of Age (as i have posted previously, read it here if u haven't read it yet), i came across the last few verses before the passage ends.

⁴⁵ “Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom the master has put in charge of the servants in his household to give them their food at the proper time? ⁴⁶ It will be good for that servant whose master finds him doing so when he returns. ⁴⁷ Truly I tell you, he will put him in charge of all his possessions. ⁴⁸ But suppose that servant is wicked and says to himself, ‘My master is staying away a long time,’ ⁴⁹ and he then begins to beat his fellow servants and to eat and drink with drunkards. ⁵⁰ The master of that servant will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour he is not aware of. ⁵¹ He will cut him to pieces and assign him a place with the hypocrites, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

these words spoke right to my heart, do we only repent/be faithful and to be close to Him only when we realise the end of times are coming? for those who are always faithful, He will rejoice when He arrives and sees us that way. but do we take advantage of Him and live in the world full of ourselves and sins when He is not here? im assuming all of us, if not most of us, belongs to the second type. we are often being tempted, and most of the time, people may think that end of the world is coming, we must live our life to the fullest. for their definition of living life to the fullest is actually doing everything that we want to do/things that we want to achieve in the future for example going clubbing til wee hours, shop til we drop, meet with our favourite idols and singers and basically, living life to the fullest. BUT no that is not the case, we must MUST repent of all our sins, everything that is not right in the sense of morality and such, those are sins! God speaks to us through our conscience, when there is something in your heart that tells you this is wrong, IT IS GOD WHO IS TELLING YOU. to stop doing what is wrong. do not continue to fall into sinful nature.

have you ever wondered after everyone of us passed away from this world, where would your spirits go? back in the days we always watched the movies whereby the spirits wander around in the world because its either they have no place to stay or they have some things to settle in the world. as i grow older, in terms of age and spiritually, i realized that life is not exactly like in the movies. there are actually only 2 places to go after death, which is HEAVEN and HELL. i can actually imagine the environment in heaven and hell. in heaven we would live an eternal life with everyone else whose name is written in the Book of Life, who is accepted by God as brothers and sisters, rejoicing, praising and worshiping God every day. and as for hell, just thinking about it, scares me off. it will be full of fire, different levels of hells for those who committed different sins and you will be burned for eternity.

my point here is, Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. He is the only way to Heaven. now what can you do to enter into Heaven? repent of all your sins, accept Jesus as your personal Saviour, ask Him to come to your life (talk to Him, pray to Him) and you will receive that salvation! live a Christian way of life, make Him the center of your lives and this might just ensure you that you will enter His kingdom!

and for us Christians, we do not just want to be Christians by name, going to church every Sunday doesn't make u a Christian, we have to practice Christianity everyday! and you know what, Christianity isn't about religion, it is the personal relationship that u have with God. now repent of all your sins, come clear to God, speak to Him, live a Christian way of life!

now why do we need to repent?

because He died for you and i. yes you the one who is reading. even if u say that no, im not a Christian, im a Buddhist, im a Muslim and such, Jesus died for you and i. here's the proof.

1 John 2:2 says that He is the atoning sacrifice for our sins, and not only for ours but also for the sins of the whole world.

trust me, God is good. try Him today. there's no harm in trying. you will not lose anything anyway! :)

p/s: sorry if i scared you through all these words but it is the truth.

PEACE and GOD BLESS YOU ALL. :)

BE PREPARED FOR WHAT IS COMING.

2011-04-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

i read this through my phone last night before i went to bed, and i thought of sharing it here. this is, the truth. get to know Him, before its too late. read on.

EXTRACTED FROM PASTOR JAESON MA'S BLOG. CLICK HERE FOR HIS BLOG AND MORE.

these are his prophecies, of what is coming soon. and it is the truth. read on, and u will know everything listed below is happening one by one.

Last year I had a vision of coming cataclysmic events that will begin in 2011. This is a word for the wise and for the rest to listen carefully. We are living in turbulent times. Things are not what they seem. Jesus said, that when He returns it will be like in the days of Noah people will be eating, drinking, getting drunk and wasting their lives away thinking that judgment will not come. We are living in those days that Jesus spoke of. Many people in the world today think that nothing will happen to them, everything is just fine, the world will continue the way it always has. Wrong, very wrong. What is coming in the next 24 months will shake our world forever. Mark my words, the United States of America will not be the same country by the end of 2012. There is coming an economic collapse that no one could fathom, but trust me, it will be felt.

We have to seriously wake up and pray. Recognize, that none of us are promised tomorrow. In fact, all we have is today. Last year in November I had written a prophetic word for the year of 2011. I saw things in my spirit in an open vision that are coming to pass right now. Some of the things that I saw, but didn’t have understanding of at the time were the following…

Oil will hit $150-200 a barrel
The Euro will fall, the US dollar will fall shortly after
Riots, Martial Law and Violence erupting in major cities and states of America
Middle East will be in crisis, specifically Egypt, the surrounding countries & Israel’s safety will be in jeopardy
More massive earthquakes in the Pacific Rim, specifically the Ring of fire will hit like dominoes
A major seismic shaking in Alaska that will in turn shake the West Coast, possible Tsunami’s and massive quakes
By June 2011 we will begin to see major shaking in the government, economy and societal upheaval in the US like never before
The 2012 election will not be a normal election, our nation will be in disarray, there will be chaos in DC and in the streets

In the midst of all this shaking, I also believe we are about to enter into the Church’s finest hour. We are about to see what I would call a shaking for the taking. But we must be prepared first in prayer personally, to check our hearts before we wreck our lives. Judgment can come in an instant, everything that we depended on in this world gone in a moment, what are we putting are trust in? Some trust in horses, some trust in chariots, but I will only trust in the name of the Lord my God. My house in not built on sand, my house is built upon the Rock. When the world shakes, my God doesn’t shake, my reality is not the world, my reality is God. There will be a global economic meltdown, we are about to enter into something worse than the Great Depression. Everything I saw is happening. From Christ Church NZ being shaken as a sign of the times for Church worldwide to WAKE UP, to the 9.1 quake in Japan that was prophesied & predicted by a prophet I know who was visited by an angel in 2010, to the coming global oil crisis, war in the middle east, to the United States losing it’s power because of it’s pride, but if we repent I believe our nation can advert judgment and enter into another great awakening. What we are about to enter into is going to be serious but not without hope. Why? I believe through prayer we can change the course of impending judgments. Look at the story of Jonah and the wicked city of Ninevah. God told Jonah to give a message of judgment and destruction upon Ninevah, but because the city of Ninevah responded to the prophetic word in repentance and mourning, God heard the people’s heart felt cry and relented to from sending the judgment deserved. God is a merciful God, He wants all to be saved and none to perish. After praying with prophetic leaders these past weeks in Southern California about this very issue, I believe we are entering into a “window of mercy” and now is the time to pray, repent and prepare spiritually & practically believing God is the author of hope and the God of revival.

My hope is in God. It is in times of crisis that we are called to release creativity. It is in times of fear that we are called to walk by faith. It is in times of testing that we are called to be a testimony. It is in times of panic that we have an unexplainable peace. We are the hope of the world. We are the children of God. We are more than conquerors. We are not here for survival, we are here for revival. I’m telling you, what is coming in 2011 is also a spiritual awakening so powerful that will sweep the West Coast from San Diego to Washington like this nation has never seen before, it will begin like a small rumbling until we will begin to see spiritual awakenings like in the days of Pentecost, holy fire from heaven, the kingdom of heaven invading the earth, universities will awaken, from Hollywood to Silicon Valley there will be a glory revealed like we have never seen, the kingdom of heaven will suffer violence but the spiritually violent will take it by force, clubs, theaters, event centers, tent revival, stadium Christianity is coming, the creative word being spoken forth, the Gospel being preached with signs, wonders, miracles confirming in a way never seen, new music, new missionaries and a new anointing unprecedented, so powerful it will rattle hell and populate heaven, demons will run and angels will invade, prepare for a spiritual revolution of not only prayer but a massive attack and invasion of light that will shift culture – it will be real. Mark these words.

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Lotus Coffee Shop, Kota Kinabalu

2011-04-02T17:32:00.000+08:00

i went to Kedai Kopi Lotus to have my dinner last 2 nights, and it was awesome (okay i realised i keep using the word awesome) anyway! it was really awesome and it was a little pricey for me (considering im really broke now). here's what we ordered.

photocourtesyof everydayfoodilove ~

yummy chicken wings! SO SUPER YUMMY I TELL YOUUUUUU OMGOSH I THINK IM CRAVING FOR IT AGAIN. hahaha. the yummiest chicken wings i have ever tasted. seriously.

RM1.80 each.

Salad chicken. i dont think its nice, FYI im a huge fan of chicken, especially fried chicken. and nah this isnt nice. RM15 for medium sized.

Pai Kut Wang. Pork! Large portion i think its RM20. this is alright. yummy i guess.

Sabah vege! my favourite. this is my favourite vege as of 30th March. hahaha. i can eat alot of this vegetables (as some of you may have known im a meat-person and vege is not my thing. at all. but i still prefer the dry one.

curry fish! this is yummy! wanted to order assam fish but because one person dont eat assam so we switched to curry. HAHHA anyway we can eat assam/curry so its okay. RM15 too if im not mistaken.

i rate the food as 4.5/5 hehehe so yummmy excluding the salad chicken. the chicken wings 6/5!! :D

its actually a very old shop so its like not so clean and pretty on the outside. but it was nice and i guess the shop is quite popular.

Location: Near Tshung Tsin School, on the way to Damai.

check it out if your in KK!

the Art of Graffiti in KK, Sabah.

2011-04-02T02:36:00.000+08:00

awesome place for photoshoot! (i wish i did a photoshoot here but nope i didnt, sad case hahaha)

heh this is where all the art of graffiti appear, which is in the heart of Kota Kinabalu. it is right in the middle of KK, which is just opposite Suria Sabah, a new shopping mall which was opened few months back.quite a lot of people came to take picture with this place, of course, i think its because this is the most strategic place and also one of a kind in KK! check out the photos.

the overall place. its actually an unfinished building but i have no idea what building. heh go google to find out more.

enough photos of those pillars. lets see our pretty faces now! :D

my dear housemate~ Casey. Think!! Think!!

Casey the photographer and Lings (with her new name Daphne) as model.

some crazy woman posing according to the black stick man drawing on the floor.

Vanessa aka Cikgu (because she's taking TESL), my ♥ as you all have known @ Sandy , May (Ling's sister), Lings and me~

checking out the place.

of many attempts, see the third picture! casey was running towards us because the camera was on a 10 second timer. HAHAHA

spot her? she ran one whole round from there. thats why she couldnt make it in the previous picture. :))

and, as always.

my individual shot. HAHAHA i always ask people to take my picture hehehe. (for my facebook profile picture haaha but this pic not nice due to my makeupless face. i look horrible!)

for those who are interested in visiting this place, its right in front of HSBC bank @ Gaya Street, and right opposite Suria Sabah. go google :)

yiruma.

2011-03-31T18:05:00.000+08:00

i saw this video on facebook. its really touching. will you do all these when your parents are old? or are you gonna send them to old folks home?

extraordinary.

2011-03-26T01:24:00.000+08:00

tonight i went to prayer meeting. i never really liked going to prayer meetings because i thought that its really boring, all we do is pray and i cant pray for a long time (intercede). i almost told my friend that i dont want to go for tonight's meeting (just for no reason) but i didnt. i went anyway. i know its not coincidence that i went tonight.

and true enough, i experienced something different. i thought that this meeting will just be like another meeting. pray, worship, pray, done, home. thats it. but no, i prayed and i prayed hard that God will touch me tonight. i prayed for spiritual giftings, and BAM. pastor said he wants to pray for those who have yet to be baptized by the Holy Spirit. i know i have not been baptized by the Holy Spirit yet, and when i heard that, i have the urge to go in front to be prayed for. i sort of want to have it but im really scared. and i dont even know why was i afraid. as in, very afraid. scared. then, chris asked me, u want? then i looked at him and laughed. T_T no idea why i did that, guess i wanted it but i was scared. anyhow i went up. prayed. there were many of us, and then most people got it for the first time. and no, i still didnt get baptized. is it because i was too afraid? or i wasnt ready? im not sure.then they asked me, can you speak in tongue? i said i didnt know how, and how do you know whether can u speak it or not? i was totally blur. then they told me. and before we started praying for the second time, i was really afraid, very very which i dont know why its like im really scared of something big? then anyway, i heard Diana was in front of me, praying for me. then i felt something different. i felt that there was something in me, and my tongue kinda got twisted and i blabbered i dont know what and felt my body shaking. but i didnt know what was that, and no one heard whether did i spoke in tongue or not because she said i was too soft she cant hear anything. so, yea there's no one to confirm whether or not did i get baptized by the Holy Spirit.

but i definitely felt something different in me. i know soon it will happen.

today, is 25 March 2011 and i experienced something extraordinary.

of UMS activity.

2011-03-26T01:05:00.000+08:00

i never liked figuring out what to put as my title.

this is the so called APK in my university. APK stands for Asas Pembudayaan Keusahawanan and its actually a compulsory subject just like TITAS. i guess its to expose us to the business environment? hmmm. anyway, it was held at the foyer and car park of DKP, Dewan Kuliah Pusat, with lots of stalls selling various stuffs! preferably food but unfortunately, not much food.

some of the stalls, mostly selling food over there.

super cute phone pouch for RM5! handmade pouch~~ but its super low quality. hmm what do you expect, its only RM5 hehehehe. i didnt buy, eventhough its so tempting.

cute flower sticks and dog-made-from-hand-towel. the flower stick is for girls to poke it on their hair bun? haha i think it looks weird since the stick itself is quite long. ummm. okay, next.

seashells~ made into various stuffs, decorations only. cheap. but i have no idea what to do with it if i buy. haha and i have no interest too!

fake magic show.

cupcakes! lots, and i mean A LOT of stalls were selling pretty cupcakes. guess its the 'in-food'? haha

yummy coconut pudding! but i still think the one nearby Gayang there is the nicest. one whole stretch selling coconut pudding. yummmmssss. awesome.

the spaghetti looks so yummmyyyy. but its RM5 each, i'd rather cook it myself. hehehehe.

another part of the stalls.

they even have mini salon here! umm not exactly salon but yea u got me, do you want to cut ur hair in front of 76528194579 students? nope. i wouldnt want that. fyi, its only RM8.

and lastly, my mei nv friend hails from Perak, the land which has the most mei nvs leng luis~

Jade, eating McD breakfast while i only ate coconut pudding and some egg thing (dont know how u call that)

kthxbai~

Elegant As Simplicity.

2011-03-22T03:09:00.002+08:00

hey ya'll im back. i went for my course dinner last weekend, 120311 with the theme Elegant As Simplicity. its my third time attending the dinner and also the last time T__T

read here and here for my first and second year IB dinner night. :D

the dinner was held at Shangri-La Tanjung Aru Resort & Spa and we paid RM65 each. little bit pricey IMO but since the tax went up so everything went up as well. T_T i spent quite a lot of money for this dinner, for my outfit, i bought leggings and heels which cost me RM100, then make up stuff, eyeshadow, eyeliner about RM50, went to salon to set my hair RM25 yada yada total prolly almost RM200. poof money gone.

anyway, enjoy the pictures.

look of the night :D

with the guys :)) from top left clockwise: Samson, Andy, Kartik, Jonathan and Sahrir. Jonathan (the one with bow tie one super cute right!! ehhehe my super senior!)

girls.

the center picture, with Casandra and Chloe. my two dearest junior :) and bottom right, with Angelia. a junior of mine.

with dear lecturers. first one, with Ms Rini, second picture with all the lecturers, and lastly with Sir Kage. awesome lecturers~~

the beautiful princesses of International Business~ us the final year students :))

and our family photo~ half of our batch.

anddddddd. more of our pictures. the usual us.

Jade and I ~ with Taiping mei nv~

Shim and i~~ i mean sylvia :)

my ♥ and i ~~ Sandy ~ im in a relationship with her (in facebook) and she said that shes gonna dump me soon :((((

us on stage :))

always and forever. us ♥

and we all looked super gorgeous that night!

and this is me~

i did dress according to the theme, elegant as simplicity ;))

im gonna miss everyone so much. cant believe im in my last 2 months as a student! T_T time flies.

i ♥ everyone here!

The Signs of the End Times.

2011-03-16T16:57:00.001+08:00

when i first heard of the earthquake that hit Japan on 11 March 2011, i felt really sad and i didnt really realize what was it and it didnt hit me until i heard that the tsunami in Japan might hit Malaysia, specifically Sabah and the thought that we are everywhere near the sea scares me! and at that point of time i was totally dumbstruck and speechless i couldnt even speak i actually thought of what will happen if it really hit us here in Sabah, and i would die due to the tsunami (in which i hate alot because i almost drowned twice) and thinking that where would my soul go to after i die? i wasnt sure i will enter heaven and im very sure that i DO NOT want to enter hell. i felt very very sorry and at that point of time, i know, all these is a warning for us, for me to repent of every sin that ive committed and that is wrong in God's eyes. and that all these, is really the sign of His second coming. (then only i know that the tsunami in Japan will not hit Sabah, but THEN AGAIN, we may never know what might happen because only God knows what will happen. who would know all these that happened to Japan may or may not happen to where we are now?)

when i was young, i remembered that Jesus will come again in the future, and i thought that the future seems so far from me so i didnt really bother anything about it. and also i thought that its stated in the bible that He will come again anytime but hundreds of years has passed and He has not returned yet, so i assumed that He will only come when i pass away, but no, now it seems like He is coming very very soon. even though i myself as a Christian, i am still not sure is my name listed in the Book of Life, and seriously im afraid that all these will come to an end very soon. i mean, i know it will but im just afraid of the after-effect. repentance is of utmost importance. Lord im so sorry :(

dont believe that this is almost the end of the world and the coming of judgement day? read this~

i suppose its too long so just read the one with bold words.

Taken from the Bible, Matthew 24: 1- 50

The Destruction of the Temple and Signs of the End Times

¹ Jesus left the temple and was walking away when his disciples came up to him to call his attention to its buildings. ² “Do you see all these things?” he asked. “Truly I tell you, not one stone here will be left on another; every one will be thrown down.”

³ As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. “Tell us,” they said, “when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?”

⁴ Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. ⁵ For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many. ⁶ You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. ⁷ Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. ⁸ All these are the beginning of birth pains.

⁹ “Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. ¹⁰ At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, ¹¹ and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. ¹² Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, ¹³ but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. ¹⁴ And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

¹⁵ “So when you see standing in the holy place ‘the abomination that causes desolation,’^[a] spoken of through the prophet Daniel—let the reader understand— ¹⁶then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. ¹⁷ Let no one on the housetop go down to take anything out of the house. ¹⁸ Let no one in the field go back to get their cloak. ¹⁹ How dreadful it will be in those days for pregnant women and nursing mothers! ²⁰ Pray that your flight will not take place in winter or on the Sabbath. ²¹ For then there will be great distress, unequaled from the beginning of the world until now—and never to be equaled again.

²² “If those days had not been cut short, no one would survive, but for the sake of the elect those days will be shortened. ²³ At that time if anyone says to you, ‘Look, here is the Messiah!’ or, ‘There he is!’ do not believe it. ²⁴ For false messiahs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect. ²⁵ See, I have told you ahead of time.

²⁶ “So if anyone tells you, ‘There he is, out in the wilderness,’ do not go out; or, ‘Here he is, in the inner rooms,’ do not believe it. ²⁷ For as lightning that comes from the east is visible even in the west, so will be the coming of the Son of Man. ²⁸Wherever there is a carcass, there the vultures will gather.

²⁹ “Immediately after the distress of those days

   “‘the sun will be darkened,
   and the moon will not give its light;
the stars will fall from the sky,
   and the heavenly bodies will be shaken.’^[b]

³⁰ “Then will appear the sign of the Son of Man in heaven. And then all the peoples of the earth^[c] will mourn when they see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven, with power and great glory.^[d] ³¹ And he will send his angels with a loud trumpet call, and they will gather his elect from the four winds, from one end of the heavens to the other.

³² “Now learn this lesson from the fig tree: As soon as its twigs get tender and its leaves come out, you know that summer is near. ³³ Even so, when you see all these things, you know that it^[e] is near, right at the door. ³⁴ Truly I tell you, this generation will certainly not pass away until all these things have happened. ³⁵ Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.

The Day and Hour Unknown

³⁶ “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son,^[f] but only the Father.³⁷ As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. ³⁸ For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark; ³⁹ and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. ⁴⁰ Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left. ⁴¹ Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left.

⁴² “Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. ⁴³ But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. ⁴⁴ So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.

⁴⁵ “Who then is the faithful and wise servant, whom the master has put in charge of the servants in his household to give them their food at the proper time? ⁴⁶ It will be good for that servant whose master finds him doing so when he returns. ⁴⁷ Truly I tell you, he will put him in charge of all his possessions. ⁴⁸ But suppose that servant is wicked and says to himself, ‘My master is staying away a long time,’ ⁴⁹ and he then begins to beat his fellow servants and to eat and drink with drunkards. ⁵⁰ The master of that servant will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour he is not aware of. ⁵¹ He will cut him to pieces and assign him a place with the hypocrites, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

when will He be coming? as stated in verse 36 and 42, no one knows when will He come, except for God himself.

are we prepared for Jesus' second coming? if you do not know Jesus, take some time to know Him personally. for He is the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Him. it is stated clearly in John 14:6. for you do not want to end up in hell, and yes hell do exist, where it is full of burning flames. and i actually imagined myself to be in heaven with all the angels and everyone else who spent our time praising and worshiping God together.

Repent now, before He comes. those who are yet to know Him, please do get to know him personally. as i am writing this post, i saw Jaeson Ma posted in his twitter saying ~ Life comes, life goes. You never know when it is your time to go, better safe than sorry, get to know God personally* #knowGod ~